Almost the new year

Alot of self reflection and promises are made this time of year. I will lose 5 lb, I will exercise, I will eat better. We've all heard them and resoluted a few now and again, but do you ever get anywhere really with them. Three weeks into January, you've had a piece of cake or you've missed the gym twice that week, you've picked up the bag of chips because there were only a few left. We've all been there done that. Not this year, no resolutions for me. I'm on my way to a healthier body and lifestyle eating so that's done.....just to continue my progress and enjoy the new year.

2006 was filled with alot of ups and downs in our family as usual. They best was watching my oldest son receive a varsity letter in football and him receiving his junior class ring. My youngest was winning the bowling championship for a second year in April. So time fleets us all, getting quicker and quicker with each passing year. The next year proves to be a doozy, I will have a senior in high school and a 7th grader. Where does the time go, I remember the day each of them were born!

Hope everyone enjoys the New Year and happiness, health and peace to all!

me

Christmas is upon us.....

So after hoping and praying all week that the check would come early, lo and behold nope! It will be here tomorrow, late with our mail, so I will be out tomorrow night until I drop or get done quick. HA!!

I've tried reinforcing with my children the true meaning of Christmas is not about toys, material objects or anything of that nature. The true meaning to me is peace, getting along with everyone all year round not just at the holidays. It's sad every year as I shop and everyone is so nice (well almost everyone) and then as soon as it's over they are all devils again. I wish for once people would just be able to get along, it would mean the world to me and I'm sure alot of other's out there.

So I sign off until after Christmas. Happy holidays, enjoy your family however big or small and count your blessings. It's the greatest gift you have on earth!

me

Christmas Stress

So last night I go home with the intentions of writing out cards for co-workers and putting up the garland to hang the stockings (no fireplace) and low and behold I'm off to the store to pickup a few items, watch a little tv with the younger boy and off to bed early, I'm dang tired.

So much for getting anything done! hmmm then to top it all off, I missed my support group meeting, totally blew my mind until this a.m. when I check my calender book. I'm such a blonde somedays that it's a wonder that I manage.

Anyhow, waiting for the last of the $$ to buy gifts and guess when it's coming? Saturday in the mail, which is generally around 3pm. Suffice to say I'll be out there till I drop or get it all finished Sat night. sigh not the way I wanted to walk into my Christmas weekend. We are due at dad's on Sunday at 4pm, salad in hand. Hopefully I don't forget to buy what I need as salad does a number on my gas....not a pretty picture. I also need to figure out when I'm wrapping. Probably Friday night and Sunday a.m. hmmm

So goes the day, work is slowing down for me finally, although i do have alot to accomplish to take over all the buying responsibilities on 1/1/07. I can't wait though, I love a good challenge.

Now to figure out what to do New Year's Eve since the request was made today for us to do something. It never ends does it

me

The countdown is on.....

For all of us out there that have not been counting we are looming ever so closely in on the Christmas holiday. HA thought I was telling you something you didn't know. wrong!! I still have not had the motivation to go out and get the last few gifts. I will probably, actually most likely be one of those crazy people out there this Sat. Sigh.....then that actually leaves little time to wrap anything. I'm just totally not motivated this year like I thought I may be.

If you happen to read my blog, please leave a comment....I'm sure this goes unread for the most part, which is fine.....but just was wondering.

me

Bad Day on Sunday

I had a great weekend until about 6pm on Sunday evening. We had gotten some King Crab legs steamed and brought home from the grocery, they were delicious and about 5 min after eating I got searing pains in my stomach and a few hours later lost it all. D also got sick, but his was in another form (sorry TMI) needless to say it put a damper on the end of our weekend.

Saturday was fruitful as far as Christmas shopping goes, I had gotten all but one item on my list, which was great for me. I figured between the crowds and the late date that I would not get nearly any of the items. Soundly Sunday morning I scanned the ads and low and behold the last item was there on sale. Zipped over to the store and got the last one. It feels good to have gifts for my kids. Now the extended and immediate family and I'm done.

This a.m. I weighed in for my first monthly weigh in. Proud to say that I am down 29lb for the month since surgery. What a great accomplishment. I will post pics later. Also, the inches are melting away. What a great thing this is.....Singing and dancing around.

All in all a great weekend

me

Happy Days

It seems that this WLS has been a blessing in disguise for me. I've not had any of the "side effects" that alot of people who do not follow the program get!! But I won't say there aren't times that I've filled up to the brim, uncomfortable is the only word that can describe that and patience on my part to let it digest and pass through without adding extra liquids down there to overfill! I sleep soundly every night (used to snore), I have no knee pain (have had a partial knee replacement), have more energy, need to exercise more (hopefully that will come). But overall I'd say yeah!! Yesterday I'm down 25lb. so that is a huge milestone for me.

Am wearing clothing I'm digging out of my closet, need to go through and see what else fits as I have not enough time in the a.m. to do this properly and still be on time for work.

The sad news, Christmas is all decorated at the house but not one present has been purchased yet, hopefully this weekend, cripes I only have two more and then I'm out of luck!! Kids have been keeping me busy on the weekends so it's no wonder I don't have time.

No griping, have a great day!

me

Two days in a row.........

Wow am I on a roll or what.....

I saw this on another blog and thought it to be quite interesting....so here goes:

COLORS
[ RED ]1. Closest red thing to you? My shirt today....
2. Has anyone ever cheated on you in a relationship? Yes, although I have to admit I've historically been the cheater, not the cheatee.
3. Last thing to make you angry? hmmm probably something stupid the kids did
4. Are you a fan of romance? Big time...I love a good romance movie too
5. Have you ever been in love? Yes
6. Do you have a temper? God yes. I manage to keep it in check most of the time, but once I lose it, look out.

[ GREEN ]
1. Closest green thing to you? Various plants in the office
2. Do you care about the environment? I do but not enough to do much more than recycle and not litter.
3. Are you jealous of anyone right now? I can't think of anyone.
4. Are you a lucky person? At times. I'm a firm believer we make our own luck though, so I think it's more persistance than luck.
5. Do you always want what you can't have? Usually. It's a long standing case of "Is that all there is??". I can manage to get past it most of the time.
6. Are you Irish? no

[ PURPLE ]
1. Last purple thing you saw? well probably the file folder in my bond lot.
2. Like being treated to expensive things? Does anyone really answer no to this? Not like I expect them but come on, let's get real.
3. Do you like mysterious things? Not sure how to answer this. I guess so, because I like to be surprised.
4. Favorite type of chocolate? I love dark chocolate...hopefuly I'll be able to have some now and again once again.
5. Ever met anyone in royalty? No.
6. Are you creative? I can be. I go through phases.
7. Are you lonely? No. I was for years, however.


[ YELLOW ]
1. Closest yellow thing to you? Post it notes lol
2. The happiest time(s) of your life? when the kids were born
3. Favorite holiday? Halloween or Christmas it's a toss up
4. Are you a coward? No - but I will freely admit I do not like confrontation with those that I love.
5. Do you burn or tan? Burn, then tan, but mostly burn
6. Do you want children? No more, I'll happily wait quite afew years now for grandkids
7. What makes you happy? Leaves turning in fall. A fresh snowfall before it has been disturbed. Fireworks in the summer. A trip to the ocean (I love the ocean). Camping out in the wilderness.

[ BLUE ]
1. Closest blue thing to you? Again the folder thing. lol
2. Are you good at calming people down? I think so.
3. Do you like the ocean? Absolutely, hoping to retire there.
4. What was the last thing that made you cry? DH
5. Are you a logical thinker? Yes, I can be. Can't say it always happens.
6. Can you sleep easily? Ridiculously easy, can sleep just about anywhere. However, once I'm up, I'm up, regardless of how early it may be.
7. Do you prefer the beach or the woods? The beach.


[ PINK ]

1. Closest pink thing to you? um, nothing I can see
2. Do you like sweet things?yes
3. Like play-fighting? nope
4. Are you sensitive? Very much so.
5. Do you like punk music? No!!
6. What is your favourite flower? Calla Lillies
7. Does someone have a crush on you? I don't think so.

[ ORANGE ]
1. Closest orange thing to you? My drinking mug
2. Do you like to burn things?no
3. Dress up for Halloween? Never
4. Are you usually a warm-hearted person? Yes.
5. Do you prefer the single life or the security of a relationship? Not sure I do single very well.
6. What would your super power be? hmmm that's an interesting question that I have no answer for....


[ WHITE ]
1. Closest white thing to you? Papers and more papers
2. Would you say you're innocent? Not at all.
3. Always try to keep the peace? Most of the time, see conflict avoidance above.
4. How do you imagine your wedding? It was quiet and nice.
5. Do you like to play in the snow? Yes
6. Are you afraid of going to the doctors or dentist? No
7. Do you have Attention Deficit Disorder(A.D.D)? I would venture to say yes even though it's undiagnosed

[ BLACK ]
1. Closest black thing to you? Computer monitor
2. Ever enjoy hurting people? No
3. Are you sophisticated or silly? Have to be silly
5. Do you have a lot of secrets? I try not to have too many. Still a few lurking out there and I'll take them to my grave.
6. What is your favorite colour(s)? Black, pink and red
7. Does the colour you wear affect your mood? Not really.

I'm a blog slacker

in the biggest way I know. There is no excuse either because I was off from work until last Friday!! Anyhow, I went for my 2 1/2 week checkup, 20lb gone forever. The weight is slowly or rapidly however you feel getting off!! yeah I'm wearing clothes I haven't worn in years, that's a great feeling.

Had a good weekend, Eagles won, Saints demolished the Cowboys, and the Bears play tonight!! Good luck Bears. Next week is the big one, Eagles/Giants, to determine the wildcard, they are tied so we are down to the wire!

I'm all decorated for Christmas but no shopping is done as of yet, of course as usual it will be a last minute affair for me. I hate waiting but have no choice this year. Of course dh is laid off, since the night of surgery, bad timing but he's getting a good unemployment from PA vs DE so that's not too shabby, of course the bad thing you have to wait two weeks to get it! Always something.

Well that's about it for today....

ciao
me

OMG what a ride

I had my surgery on 11/20, what a great success and an utter failure all at the same time. I had a great success in getting up and moving around immediately, the failure was at the darn gastrobyplex the next day, ugh, natious and everything else, it was truly horrible. I haven't taken any pain meds, want to get back to work now and am truly happy with my decision to go through with it. I've lost about 15 lbs so far, not to shabby for about 10days out I think, saw my primary care yesterday and am doing great. The biggest thing for me so far is trying on some clothing I haven't worn in a bit and it fits!! what great joy that brings me!

I will try to keep up more, have to finish decorating for Christmas now.

me

Waiting impatiently....

to hear from the doctors for my approval. She said she submitted the forms on Friday last and should hear in 2-3 days. Hello it's Wednesday now so we are on day three. I wish they would just call for pete's sake so I can move on in mind and mentally prepare for this! I am to arrive at the hospital at 3pm on Monday, not quite sure how I am going to make it through the day without drinking or eating, but it's a must!! I has to happen. Other than that I've been busy at work, tying up odds and ends in preparation for being out for two weeks. We've also finished football, team had an unfortunate 1-9 season. Better luck next year boys!!

me

We are counting down now..........

I am within two weeks now. Actually the surgery is a week from this Monday. Everything is done, all the labs, hospital pre-op visits, endless doctor appointments and now I wait. Actually I am waiting to hear that the insurance is approving the surgery also. I'm excited and have been so busy in fact too busy to blog! oy

This is the last weekend of football, so things are winding down in our life in that aspect. I can't wait to move to the losing side of things.

ciao for now have a great weekend
me

It's done

All the pre-requisite appt are over and I've been cleared by them all! So I'm ready, well almost. I have my pre-op appt at the hospital next Tuesday, they said it will take about 3 hours and then on to the first of two appt at the dietician, the second half had to be postponed because the dietician isn't there on that particular Tuesday. Then next Thursday I have my final pre-op appt at the doc's...I'm excited...can you tell, can you tell? It's almost a dream come true up to this point. I'm hoping for a speedy recovery and uneventful surgery. So as of today, I have a little less than three weeks and I'll be re-born so to say.

On the homefront, things have been busy so to say, football is winding down. I will miss it when we don't have it anymore, but man it will be nice to have my nights and weekends back for me. Now the next step for this son is to firm up some colleges so we can plan visits this spring. I just hope he likes what is going on as it's hard to tell sometimes. As for the other son, well bowling will last until March, so I do have my Sat mornings busy for a while still. Then I have to start thinking about Christmas shopping because sheesh it's less than two months away at this point! I don't know if my sister's from SC are coming up, but I will need to find that out also!

We are planning our turkey day celebration early due to the surgery, so I think that the 12 of Nov is going to be our big day. It's almost weird not to have a regular turkey day this year I think! I also have not told my family about the surgery yet so come Christmas there should be some suprise when they see me!

So I'm off to finish out some work and off for the little trick or treaters tonight....how fun it is too see all the wee ones dressed up!

me

It's almost time

I can't believe it. Monday I went in for my EGD and they said everything looked great. Well I got home and there was a message from my doc's office and they wanted to schedule my date!! wahoo is all I can say! So I called back and my date is 11/20. Lot's of fast calls yesterday afternoon and I'm set up for my pre-admission testing and the dietician all on the day off next month. I will still have to get my pulmonologist done which is 10/30 but that shouldn't be a problem, also I have to get my final surgery clearance but he can do it at night if I need to. I'm almost there and very happy about this whole ordeal, it's been so far so good. Now the last hurdle to cross is the insurance ok but that should go through fine from what I've heard!

Other than that life is busy, football, bowling and everything that goes along with it! I can't believe we are two months away from Christmas and to be honest it's the farthest thing from my mind at this point! I know the kids will be upset but it will all work out, it always does!

So next year this time, I will be a new person. Now to get some before pics so we can do comparisons...lol

me

Why is it..........

that when you want to speak with someone in the doctor's office all you ever get is their answering machine. I've been calling my contact for four days now....count em, 1, 2, 3 and 4 and all I ever get is her answering machine or the office is now closed message...I mean c'mon if you leave a message she never returns it but if they need something, you have to drop everything and get on the phone with them.

Now don't get me wrong, I think they are all wonderful and caring people there but man, stress is my middle name trying to get this accomplished. I will call back again on my break and hopefully get a live person instead of the machine!!

On a brighter note, tomorrow is Friday and I'm scheduling myself for a day off I think. I've been tossing this around for a bit now and since I have to be at school at 2:30 I think I'm just going to call out. Ho Hum, I know I'm needed here but I have things to take care of.....

we'll see how I feel tomorrow.

more later
me

I'm so excited

Things are really coming together. As of today I spoke with Mistee at the doc's office, she urged me to contact another pulmonologist and schedule an earlier appt. So I called and got one for next week, WOW is all I can say the original I called back in Sept and was waiting for my 11/7 appt. So by next Tuesday I should be done!! WOW again.

I will call her again tomorrow after my psyche appt and see if she wants to put a date down or not! I'm really getting excited and it will be the best pre-Christmas present ever. I don't know how that will hamper any holiday plans but it's really great for me.

I have been the usual busy, football, bowling and running. Last night was our work Wine Expo which was a great success as always, of course I'm drop dead tired today but I expected that. It doesn't help that it is also raining out. So after a few days of 50's and 60's we are going back to the 70's and summerlike weather again. No wonder everyone and their brother is sick!!

Tonight is a relaxation one for sure. Last night the wash, some shopping and vacuuming was done by the time I got home so that was an added bonus for me!! More time to relax tonight...lol

that's it for now, keep ya posted

me

Time flies when you are having fun

Someone once said that. Interesting enough that is sounds not the case for me and the last few days since my post. I have been basically busy at work and dropping dead of exhaustion in bed every night since then. NO FUN!!!

I feel like I'm getting my first cold of the season so at lunch I took an Airborne, I hope they live up to their name and keep me well!! Anyhow, tomorrow is bowling, hair and football game, so that brings me home around dinner and I'm in for the rest of the weekend hopefully catching up on some rest and laundry and cleaning and everything else. LOL

have a great one.

me

Where is the week going

WOW it's been a short bit since I've last been in here. I have had a running weekend and hoping things will slow down a bit shortly, as I've got to catch my breath. I did get my hair done Sat which was the highlight of my weekend, new color and cut and I'm very happy with it, it's so different than before...see below


old style


new style

but unfortunately as always the blond starts bleeding through very soon. The football games were both a loss for this weekend, Friday night was cold and windy and yesterday was warm and sunny. However, Nick did play well in Monday's game. GO NICK!!!

Work has been hectic and with me missing pieces of time here and there, well I should be working and not blogging....giggle

So that's it for me right now..

me

Sports

I never wanted to become one of those mother's who ran their kids to death with sports and after school activities, but this year it seems to me that I've bit off more than I can chew right now. I have one who is playing Varsity and JV football, so that requires 5 day a week practice on top of the two games a week he attends and plays in. So all in all we are running 6 days for him. They the other one has afterschool everyday and then Sat morning bowling. UGH is all I can say right now. Tonight is a Friday Night Lights game away, it doesn't start until 7pm and that means we'll be home around 11 -11:30pm tonight. Then I am up again tomorrow at 7am so we can be at bowling at 8:30. After that I have my weekend "free" as they say but then I have wash, cleaning and groceries to do. I feel like I'm just too spread thin some days!

Then tomorrow after bowling we will get home around noonish and he will want to go out and eat or "do" something, I will be thoroughly exhausted and forget it. Then he whines, you never want to do anything, well help me for pete's sake. Right now there are clothes in the dryer, clean dishes in the washer and the sink is full of dirty ones. I am one person and cannot do everything! Repeat, cannot do everything. I have the oldest ds down there routing through clothes to get "what he needs" and is too much of a hurry to bring up the rest of them. So they sit and will remain there until I get around to it.

Seems like this post is turning into a bit of a bitch session, but it's my blog, if I want to bitch then I will damnit!! lol

So the big news for the weekend around our parts is TO is coming back to town to play his old team. Whoppee is what I say about it. Granted he is a good player but everything else he does and says who cares, I'm just plain sick of it. I hope the Eagles putting a pounding on the Cowgirls and send them home with their tails between their legs. Speaking of football, I would love to see another Bears game televised. Although they are usually few and far between they have a great team this year, really seem to be jelling and if things continue, I can see them going all the way to the Super Bowl. Good luck Bears!!

Oh and wls news, well I received a call from the doc's office Wed night, they indicated that they will be in network (for insurance purposes) through 12/15 right now. So they scheduled my EGD test 10/23 and now I have to complete everything and get the surgery done sooner than I wanted. No problem with me, maybe with work, but it will have to do. I want this done and don't want to loose my opportunity since the insurance is up in the air. Once I have it, I will worry about everything else later.


So I'm off now, to try and enjoy the blaance of this rainy Friday. Hopefully things will run smoother than I expect this weekend.

me

Happy humpday

So as days go today is a good day because I thought all day long it was Tuesday. The way I see I'm one up on the week!

Been having horrible pains in my abdomen. Have no friggin clue what they could be as I have taken gas pills to no avail. Hopefully they will pass soon as they are killing me.

We had a little Fun Day today at work. It was an interesting way to try and rejuvenate us. I had fun, not sure about the rest.

Not much else to report
me

Monday Mayhem

Ok folks it's really cranking up around here with activities, afterschool and whatever. The weekend was a blur. Got to go to a really cool open house for a new Salon/Spa in my neighborhood, they had great food, drinks and met some really fabulous people. Afterward I took my gf to The Blue Parrot. A little bit of Mardi Gras right up here in DE and we had a drink, noshed some and talked. It was great!

To rewind earlier Sat was a washout in the football game dept. 37-0 washout plus the rain came right at the end of the game. DS did get to play, defense this time and did well. So for him it was a good day, too bad this team can't win a game to save their life. Today is JV after school, of course I couldn't make it due to work restraints but I'm sure he's doing well, and hopefully winning for a change!!

DS2 is starting his afterschool stuff so he'll be late, Monday, Wed and Thursday, hopefully it will give him some sense and help him get a better report card.

ok for now I'm rushing
me

Weekends are a wonderful time

for anything. Really, anything goes on a weekend. Tonight we have to hurry and get to bowling prior to the Friday night leagues coming in so I can attend ds1 football game tomorrow morning. Let me tell you I am really looking forward to that since it's going to be a crisp, clear and cool morning tomorrow for the game. Then the rest of the weekend is free for me! It is going to be a glorious weekend for anything. Oh I do have plans tomorrow night, Dawn and me are going to an Open House at a new salon/spa that my hairdresser works at now. It should be lots of fun and neat door prizes too, I hope one of us wins something. Then afterward we are off to the Blue Parrot for snacks and drinks. All in allshould be great fun.

So yesterday I had my doc appt. Man are these appt long, I was there in the office from 12:30 to 3:30. Thank goodness I was approved for surgery from him and I had a EKG and ECHO done and they say I have a very healthy heart!! Imagine that, I felt very humbled by that since the family history speaks otherwise... So one down and two to go on my journey.

Ciao for the weekend
me

Another day

Well I went out this a.m. to the park to meet the "man" who was a no show. Now you would say I set myself up for some disappointment, right?, wrong! I was actually relieved that he didn't show, how crazy is that! Well last night I was thinking about it, he really wasn't with me on this whole surgery thing and I am totally with it. So it wouldn't work, he would complain and not be supportive and what I need is support not a whiner right. Also, unfortunately for him he has terminal cancer. I believe it's in his stomach region which probably makes for a tender subject with him anyhow. Well, I'm glad I brought out my IPOD, I sat on the bench enjoying the nice fall morning, listening to my songs and just breathing and being a part of the earth. It's a very peaceful park, with the river right there and a walking trail along side for those who desired. normally I would have walked but I have the cardio doc at 1pm and I need to scoot soon to get there early and fill out the paperwork (new patient) so I didn't. I also want to stop and get some mums for my pots and something for dinner so the afternoon should be full. Hopefully I won't be at the cardio doct for hours and hours like the original consult but we will see. I called out of work sick just in case. I'm not ready for them to become suspicious. tootles for now
me

Embarrassment

Ok, I totally got caught up in the guy thing and totally forgot about my huge, red faced embarrasement in the OB/GYN office yesterday. This may become a bit graphic, but since it's my blog I want to vent it all....so I've arrived, I get on the scale and it's horrible, not so bad yet, I have my BP done and with driving it is always a bit on the high side as other drivers make me so nervous. Still we aren't doing too bad yet. Well she then tells me to change, no changing room anymore! so the clothes are neatly folded on the seat; put on the gown (ties to the front) and drape the paper over your lap. Ok the gown I was given probably wouldn't even fit a large girl, and I'm a 1-2x girl, so that's not even meeting to tie, bad enough I'm sitting there with the paper draped but it won't come up enough to cover me, so literally I'm hanging out so when the door opens viola anyone in the hall can see me. Ok so this is bad but yes it does get worse!

So I'm sitting there and we are chatting about things, me, my home, how am I, any complaints. We are just chatting along and she comes over to listen to my heart. Ok, not so bad you think right, wrong! When listening to the front chest she lobs my boob up to hear underneath, it makes this slurping sound that is horrible from sweating stuck to the skin below it! Ewww. Not the worst, the fat rolls cannot get out of the way enough for her to hear clearly so sit back a bit so I can listen. I'm sure I was as red as Santa's suit at this point. I've become very quiet and almost distant!!

What was I thinking and why am I wondering about why I want this surgery done!!

me

Self doubt has set in

Now that I've technically "met" someone and we are really going to meet up tomorrow, he states he likes me the way I am. What do I mean by this, well it's simply that he likes my weight (on the thick side) and isn't 100% about this WLS that I am pursuing. Well now the self doubt sets in. I really want it, it's what I've been working hard for about 3 years now. I know in the long run my health and well being will be better but WOW, this is the first guy I've ever met that likes me just the way I am.

So as I am standing in a crossroad, I ponder what route I shall take. Interestingly enough I have one of my appts, cardiologist, right before we meet up tomorrow, talk about strange. So here I stand in the middle of a road and wondering which way I will turn.

On another note, tonight my oldest ds officially gets his license. Talk about a thrilling time in his life. I'm very excited and sad for him growing up and yet that much closer to leaving me. I know this is the start of the separation anxiety all parents feel when their little chicks growup and leave the nest.

So this blog is going to go all over the place today, what a beautiful fall day. The warm days and cooler nights are sticking with us, and suiting me just fine. I love fall, just wish it wouldnt' turn to winter so quickly.

me

Autumn

Is here, not officially yet until tomorrow but it has slowly been creeping into our area already. The mornings have been brisk 40-50's and the days warm 70's -low 80's. I love autumn, the changing of the leaves, the warm days, cool evenings, the football season is back, the trees changing colors. Of course that means that old man winter is right around the corner, and I'm not too fond of winter but it is the way it is in the mid-Atlantic states and it's part of the cycle. I look forward also to my surgery and my "new" me next summer, a thinner, healthier person than I am now. To be able to enjoy shopping and clothes, to actually be impressed and excited to get dressed and not just "cover up" the areas!

Autumn is a time of transition, the days start getting shorter, the nights longer. We all feel sleepier and prepare for the long incubation before the first thaw of spring and the buds on the trees. It is wonderous and dreaded for many. Some suffer from the seasonal change. I brace myself for weeks before the actual time change but it comes nonetheless and I deal as I do every year. So I guess I use this as a time of reflection, to sort out how the year was and what the rest of the year holds. What a great time to be alive!

me

Co-Workers

Can be the nicest people when they want something or pia's when they are on their high horse. Do you work with someone like that? I do, she thinks that she knows it all, does your job for you when she feels fit to and then wants to know why something didn't happen that she tried handling like that is your fault. Well yesterday I had a day like that, I just ignored her and that's how I handle it. It's very infuriating to myself but you deal. Last night I also got the first full night's sleep in a while. It actually felt nice to get up this a.m. well slept.

So fall has made an earlier appearance here in the NE, it was a crisp 40 something degrees out there this a.m. and man it felt nice. Of course in a few months you are going to see my complaining about the cold weather but for now it's nice, warm days and cooler nights, I do love fall. Today is actually day off from all that is crazy! Believe it or not, tomorrow is the same but then Saturday we have bowling. It's really going to be a more relaxing weekend than we've had ina while and I think I will take advantage and get caught up on my cleaning and wash that's been piling up since the washer broke a couple of weeks ago and our lag in getting a new one in place right away. It is supposed to get a little warmer this weekend back up near 80 so it will definitely be a good weekend for some yard work.

me

Baby steps

Is what this is all about. Baby steps to lead into surgery and baby steps to recovery and a new way of eating and living. Last night I attended my first of two required nutrition classes. It was very informative and it was also nice to meet some of the other ladies in my area that are going through the same thing as I am. I will say they are much more motivated and getting their appointments done sooner than me that's for sure. I haven't had much luck contacting the pulmnologist, although I have called we are just playing phone tag at this point. I was told since I snore and whatnot to try and get a hold of them as they will probably be the one who is the most drug out as far as processes go. So I've returned the call and now I wait! I also need to make a psychiatric appointment too. I have to get the initial bloodwork done but she said to hold off until the end of October since I want to have the surgery in January. Next week I will be attending the first of my support groups and am very excited as the guest speaker is my surgeon and the topic is Life after Surgery. I also want to get to the bookstore and pickup one of the recommended reading books, as I hear they are informative and full of great tips going into and out of surgery. So the baby steps are in place and it's hard to believe almost two weeks have past since my initial consult.

me

And one more today

***You Are A Social Butterfly***


You love your friends so much...
You're motto is "the more, the merrier"!
Making sure everyone's included is your mission
And you always prefer a group of ten to a group of two


What Kind of Friend Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindoffriendareyouquiz/

These are addictive

***Your Rising Sign is Aquarius***


You are an interesting mix of introspective and outlandish.
Waving your freak flag high, you really do things your own way.

While you may seem distant, you care very deeply for humanity.
You just have no tolerance for fools, slackers, or dullards.

And while you're fairly misanthropic, many are drawn to you.
Innovative and clever, people look to you for new ideas and trends.


What's Your Rising Sign?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourrisingsignquiz/

bored.................

***What Your Face Says***


At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable.

Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.

With friends, you seem thoughtful and interested in ideas.

In love, you seem energetic - almost manic.

In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless.


What Do People Think Of Your Face?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatdopeoplethinkofyourfacequiz/

New beginnings

My oldest son is 16 today. What a great milestone that is in his life. He is able to drive now, although not totally unattended but still. I told him you get few true milestones as far as birthdays go and today is one of them. Of course some see the beginning of teenage years a milestone but we skipped right over that one. 16, 18, 21, 25 (for boys) and then every decade. I think those are true milestones.

So 16 years ago at 5:55 am a 9lb 10oz boy came into this world screaming for his life. Today he stands 6'4" and weighs about 180 so quite a difference 16 years makes! He is a great student, ranked in the top 30 of his class and he athletic also, playing football and basketball. A proud mom I am of this child.

Last night was the second JV game of the season (football) unfortunately they lost 12-0 so it was not a good night, but he played, and boy did he play alot. Good luck for next week.

So while many moms out there may feel old as their children grow older, not me, I'm a young 42 and moving forward to a healthier lifestyle for myself and looking forward to all life has to bring me.

me

I survived.............

One of the craziest weekends I've had in a while. Friday night was probably the only relaxing night and that in itself wasn't that relaxing. We went out to the store and picked out ds2 birthday gift, let me tell you this little boy of 12 now has expensive taste! Then on to get pizza and home for the evening. I was probably out like a light about 9:30pm as I had early wakeup call for bowling the next morning. After bowling I had about two hours to clean up and get ready for the next round of running. Off to drop off ds1 at school, out to pickup the food and back to school to deliver, setup and feed 50 hungry football players and coaches, then home pickup dh and ds2 and go out to get a quick bite to eat ourselves. Dropped them back at home, changed really quick then off to the football game. Unfortunately they lost, bad but it was a good game none the less. Then we got home around 11pm and fell exhausted into bed. Up early the next morning to get the new clothes washer into the basement, then start the millions of clothes that have been piling up!! Let me tell you a week and a half is way to long to go without a washer when you have active boys!

Ok, so now it's time for football, Eagles having their healthy lead get cocky and too self assured and blew it right out the window for a loss! This should never have happened but it did, then looking around the league I see that they aren't the only ones with problems keeping their lead this week, all in all a disappointing week 2 in NFL for me.

The only redemption, TO broke his finger and won't be able to make it to Philly 10/8 and that's not saying alot at all!

So today after school we have JV game, I can't wait for them to kick some serious butt!

me

Fridays...........

How slow they get here and how quickly they are gone and the weekend over!

Tonight is a running night although after the telephone call I just received I'm not sure now we are going anywhere since ds2 is now in trouble with school and me and his father. So this all precipitated from a phone call from his teacher. So he's in trouble until further notice. But now that is not why I came here today, but it's off my chest so there.

Today was a day of running, to DMV to get my license plate extension since the car failed inspection, off to BJ's to get a few things for tomorrow nights player dinner and now I have to get the food finalized so it's ready. Tomorrow is bowling in the a.m. and then the football game at night. The first night football game of the season, I can't wait. Hopefully the weather will clear up and it will be nice out.

Sunday of course is cleaning, wash and football (pro, of course) this time. So hence the weekends come and go in the blink of an eye. Why can't the work week go this fast!! I never know.

We also, need to lug the new washer into the basement what a job that will be.

GO EAGLES!!! we'll see you later

me

The Who

Who says The Who is dead? Well last night was testament to me that they are alive and kicking and putting on great shows like they did 20 some odd years ago. It was my pleasure to be apart of the first night of their US Tour and what a show it was. Roger Daltry for his 60 something years is still fit, and singing as well as before out there spinning that mike around like there's no tomorrow, and Pete Townsend still one of the premier guitarists of our times, windmilling his guitar like he was 40 years younger. The treated us to a bit of their new music from their upcoming record and again like Tommy it's a story based musical. Quite different than Tommy but still incredible.

The opening band Peeping Tom, could have made a no show in Philly as the folks were there to see The Who and no one else, they were literally booed off stage.

Lastly, today, my baby is 12 years old. It's amazing to me how quickly this time has gone. It seems like yesterday I was giving birth to him. Happy Birthday buddy!!

me

People

Did you ever notice how people have gotten to be so insincere. Back when I was growing up in the 70's and 80's people were more sympathetic and you could feel more comfortable out there in the millions. Nowadays peole are rude, demanding, and just plain old ignorant in some cases. Alot of them think the world owes them something when in fact no one owes anyone anything! I was put in this position this past Saturday when I was going out to pickup a clothes washer that someone was selling. Now to backup, the past Wednesday I called this gentlemen who was very well spoken and kind on the telephone. We agreed that Saturday would be the day I would come out and pickup this washer. I asked him if this would be a problem waiting and he assured me it was fine. So we leave the house and make out way to his. We are knocking on the door and no one answers. Confusion sets in. So I go outside and get my cellphone out to call him and find out if there was a delay in his reaching home. Well low and behold there is a message for me, from him. He's sorry to say he's sold it. Right out from under me!! I mean I was shocked and hurt that he would do this. Well my dh is fuming now and we've wasted an hour for nothing.

So I'm back on the hunt for a washer. Well I called another gentleman yesterday morning. He said he would call me last night and we would make arrangements. So I saved myself a little bit of cash and he even delivered it out to the house too! What a great person he turned out to be.

Now I'm on to another story. My gf has been seeing this new man. She met him on a Thursday evening 8/3 . Great news for her, she's been single for about five years now. Well I left on vacation 8/5 and when I get home on 8/11 she's sitting in my front yard telling me she's moving in with him. OMG I am shocked, and confused why should would put her five year old in this position. But it's her life and whatever she thinks is best will have to be. OK...So moving forward. Now we are at a little over one month, she's mostly moved in. Never talks to me anymore and I know that this "man" a term I use loosely is not divorced yet from his wife. In fact the horrible truth about it all is that she only moved out about a week before he met my gf. So the kicker, he got fired from his recent job (not that I consider it a job) and she was let go about a month ago. Last night I get a call from her (which I missed thank god) and she states that they've been busy. She didn't get a chance to call me back from Friday because she was away this weekend!! OK no $$ and you were away??? WTF is that! I really don't know what she is doing but she's hiding out well for someone who only lives around the corner right now! Whatever. I do know one thing, I will not be there when the shit hits the fan this time, emotionally I'm drained from her and I can't deal with her and what I have going on in my life right now at the same time. I think it will only be a short time before something happens but I guess the old addage time will tell will be the truth.

So there's my rant for today....I guess I'm supposed to feel better now...

lol

me

9/11

A day of reflection and what was once and is now.

The biggest question around our area is where were you and what were you doing that fateful day when the planes flew into the World Trade Center I & II, The Pentagon and Schwanksville, PA. Well I posed this question to my youngest and his answer, 2nd grade and we got out early. I didn't know why but it was cool. Now five years later and a little older his answer is a little different. I didn't know all those people were dying, it was a sad day when people lost their moms, dads and other family members. It brought a tear to my eye to see how much he's grown since then. My older son was very aware of what was going on, we had just turned out money in for the Statue of Liberty field trip, which I had been waiting to go on for two years. They were studying immigration and while they finished their studies that year, it was without the field trip. I was hurt that people would do something so cruel without a second thought to the consequences of their actions, but that was what they intended on doing right, mass destruction. They had tried twice prior without the "end results" they were looking for. I could go on and on, but I won't. As someone who lives approximately 1/2 way between NY and DC, it was very real for me. Although I am not aware of anyone personally perishing I do have friends up there that are scarred for life.

Let freedom live.
me

End of the weekend....

So Sunday's are nice for relaxing and being a big football fan time to watch some games (now that it has started again) but it also means the end of the busy weekend and time to get ready to go back to work! Yesterday d did great at bowling and it was nice to see all the parents who are in the network after summer break, also n almost won which is very impressive over a team who beat the pants off of them last year. So progress has been made!! I have to call the doctor and get a referral for the heart specialist I see at the end of the month and the journey has begun. I can't believe it, it almost seems surreal at this point.

Off to enjoy today!!

Me

A new beggining............

Well today is the first day of my new life. I go to my consult appointment at 1:30 and we'll see what it will take to get this ball rolling and me be on the losing side of the weight issue! I can't believe it's here already. When I initially called I thought it would be forever and here it is! So 242lb of me is ready to starting trimming down.

Also, TGIF yeah for that and tomorrow is football, 10:00 and N is starting and also bowling at 9am and D is playing. Timing stinks for the most part but at least I can sneak out and go over to the game 1/2 way through bowling...right around the corner!! yeah I think N is starting so I don't really want to miss it!!

so much to do and so little time

me

Ok, I'm back from my consult....yeah that's out of the way. I was there for a total of three hours and when I called work and told them I'm not coming back, wow, they were not suprised. Of course I didn't tell them what doc I was seeing so far it's under wraps there. Now the homework that was sent home, I walked out with one appt scheduled and that's it!! Now I have to make the other three and coordinate them into my crazy schedule. I will make this work so that this will move forward and not stall. My goal for a Janary surgery is right in line with my doc's thinking. So that's perfect. Oh did I mention he's great, very informative and just what I needed someone to tell me like it is and not lace it with suger and bs...lol Ok I'm really going now....until tomorrow.

me

Thursdays

Not quite Friday but not Monday either!! Last night my dh was being a royal PIA. Of course since our washer is broken we carted all the laundry to the laundromat and had to sit there for 1 1/2 hours while everything washed and dried. I thought we made out pretty good since we were able to get all the wash in at once and dry at once. Of course he was embarrased and pissy about it the whole time. I never asked for his help and was perfectly content to take ds1 but he HAD to go!! lol It's over, I'm on the hunt for an inexpensive washer and hopefully something will come up soon.

I never made it motor vehicle but that's ok, I still have a week to go so I'll get there in time and it will all be fine. I probably will have to get some work done, but crossing my fingers that I don't, you know those car repair people charge you an arm and leg to change a lightbulb...

Tomorrow is my big appointment. I have been conflicting information regarding the payment situation, so I'm just going to sit tight and wait it out until I go and ask the right questions. I'm sure they will be more than happy to tell me up front anyhow! I can't believe it's beginning!

Last night, they voted Storm off of Rock Star:Supernova. I was sad as I really liked her as a performer but I guess they thought she wasn't the "one". I hope they feel Toby is now, I really am digging his performances lately!

Next week all the season shows start, Survivor, ER, Law and Orders....man I watch way too much tv...lol

ok off for now....
me

Hump Day.............

WOW, how nice is it to wake up and find it's hump day already. I could use the extra Monday off every week, of course that means we are shoving five days worth of work into four and with holiday season upon us that means craziness here at work!! Yesterday I probably got a 1/4 done of what I wanted but that's how it goes somedays right! Today I have the dreaded car to motor vehicle for inspection, hopefully it passes so fingers and toes crossed for me!!

I also need to do something about this clothes washer situation, I so want to get a new one but it's just not in my budget right now, so tonight I must get to the laundry mat and at least get some of the wash done!! I know I will not feel like it, but I have too!!

Oh and lastly, major setback I believe is about to happen with my WLS journey. A letter went out to the people who are post-op, evidently the doc is moving out of network unless a resolution can be met with BCBS (they have until 9/30) if this happens then I will be forced to pay 8000.00 out of pocket to the doctor just to have the surgery! At this point that willmake the whole surgery out of the question! I mean c'mon I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired and overweight. Please let them find a resolution so we can all make the changes we need to in our life to live a productive one!!

ttyl
me

Another rainy day.........

Does it feel like a Monday or what!! Well today, the first day after Labor Day is rainy again. It's depressing sometimes with all the rain even though we need it immensely. Anyhow the weekend turned out alot better than planned with the tropical storm Ernesto rolling in on Friday and part of Sat. The only problem is I got NO sleep Friday night with the wind!! Saturday was gray and drizzly late in the day so no real things were accomplished. Sunday, well I got the dining room cleaned out and I mean it's clean!! I vacuumed and the clothes washer broke. The stupid landlord says she doesn't think she has to replace it so there!! I will buy a new one and keep it when I move on!! Anyhow, I got a dishwasher, after three years of scrubbing dishes by hand it's a godsend for me!! No more washing all the dishes by hand!! yippee.... Football is running our life right now, practice on Friday (kids off) and Monday, ok it's a holiday! anyhow, it's all for the good of the children, right! But who wants to get up at 7am on a holiday Monday. The clouds rolled in yesterday afternoon as I was grilling and viola back in the rainy mode we are!

Today was relatively smooth in the morning with the kids, I guess the last week of getting up early and getting off to school has them back in the the mode already!! thank god I didn't feel like dealing with that! I can't wait for my first doc appt it's this Friday and we will get the ball rolling once and for all with this weight!! Hopefully the weight is over..lol

ttyl

well a little update since this a.m. I was reading up on OH board that my insurance has decided to pay less than the required costs for the surgery, so now I'm not sure where I stand, maybe I won't be able to go through with this? Maybe I will, I won't know more until Friday, but it always seems so unfair to me. Oh well, another day in paradise right!

Me

Where do I begin.................

well I'm embarking on a new journey. I've made a drastic decision in my life to undergo WLS. For those who don't know what this is, it is Weight Loss Surgery. After going through my whole life (heavy) for lack of a better word, I'm ready to reveal the skinny girl inside me who's dying to come out!! I'm 42 years old and wish I had made this great discovery years ago. I've had major issues with back pain and knee pain, which resulted in a partial knee replacement in Feb 05 and now I'm going to do this. I'm excited, nervous, scared and all the things wrapped up that make this the craziest decision I've ever made in my life. I think in the long run and the overall will make me a better person for my husband, children and future grandkids (well at least I hope so). Anyhow a little about me, i'm 42, married and have two boys 12 and 16. They are very active and keep me hopping but sometimes I just want to sit! Born and raised in Delaware but love to travel all over. I am a purchasing agent for a wine and spirit wholesaler and love my job although at times it is hectic. I go for my first surgeon consult 9/8/06 and am excited to get this underway.