Friday, March 30, 2007

I'm getting there......

it's amazing to me that in this short period of time I am almost at my goal for weight loss. Everyday when I look in the mirror I'm still amazed at the person looking back at me. I'm going to take dance lessons now, the first thing on my list when I got thinner to do.. I have a laundry list of items I would love to do now that I'm am physically and mostly mentally ready to do them.

I am still working out my arms with the weights every morning because I want the batwings to start to go away. It's the only thing besides my inner thighs that is truly driving me crazy right now!! Summer is right around the corner and I'm not ready!! I want, no need to buy a new bathing suit and soon, it's crazy! The other night me and D went to the store to pickup a few things, well I stopped at the capris (since I've given all mine away) and pulled out a 12 and 14 to try on, well the 12's were too big in the waist but ok in the I got a 10 and tried them on, they fit!! OMG was I so stinking shocked. I can't believe it, so much so I bought them, it truly was a small victory for me!! Everyone at work says I'm skinny, I'm not at least I don't think so yet, but I am working on it. I have a pouch in my abdomen area, of course the fold above my belly doesn't help any either, and the inner thigh thingy along with the batwings are going on. If I could simply erase them I'd be perfectly happy! Easier said than done right!! So, I tried on my sandals the other night, the ones I'm going to wear for salsa lessons, they felt ok, so we'll see how I feel after an hour on them...that should be interesting.

Dad called last night, what are youup to he says, then he asks what are you down to....I've shocked him with the number and he tells me, you've made the right decision to get rid of this weight at your age, I feel very warm and fuzzy from this. My dad and me, we have the best relationship, too bad my mom and me don't, well not in the same way at least. So we are going over to dad's for Easter dinner, I'm excited as I have no where to be the next morning and we can truly enjoy the day!

So now the weekend is here, I'm so glad and it's going to be a great spring weekend here!

ciao for now

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Hump Day

Where the heck did that term ever come from? Well let's take a look and see......

The mid-day of the week is named for the Norse God, Odin. He was also known as Woden or Wotan. Unlike many of the other days of the week, this day did not correspond roughly with the Roman designation for the day. (The Roman's named Wednesday for the messenger God - Mercury - In Romanian, the day is still known as miercuri). The early Scandanavians and Germans believed that Odin was the chief God of Asgard and as such deserved to have a day of the week named for him. The Anglo-Saxons used the word, Wodnesdaeg.
Wednesday is often referred to as "hump day" because of its position as the middle day of the work week. If the work week were a hill. Then Wednesday would be the crest. It is all down hill from there. (Whether the down hill ride is a coast or a descent into a swamp is left to the individual.)
Only one holiday typically recurs yearly upon Wednesday. Ash Wednesday is the official beginning of lent. It is called "Ash" Wednesday because since the 400's it has been the day upon which religious penitent's foreheads are marked with ash. It is a reminder of the mortal condition of the flesh - that we are all dust. This day is a variable date dependent on the date which easter falls. See Sunday to find out how this date is

Ok this is what I seems like poor old Wednesday being the middle of a seven day week is the downslide...the homerun to the weekend per se. Well I don't care what you call it, just let Friday come quick!!

I talked to one of my gf today and we are going to embark on Salsa dancing lessons. NOW why would I want to do this you might wonder? Well being that I am losing weight, exercising and toning up somewhat I thought it would be great to try new things, all forms of dance have always excited me and learning new things has also, so I'm game and we are going. Hopefully I can find a pair of shoes that will work for this occasion since the knee still gives me problems now and again...I actually have a great pair of strappy sandals that would do perfectly but I'm not sure how I feel in them....they have about a 2 1/2" heel...we'll see.

I have made up my mind that I'm trying out new things....darn it! Rubber stamping has gotten me addicted, I make a few cards every weekend! gah and the expense, we all got together and went to a morroccan restaurant..What an interesting experience that was eating with our hands and everything...The male and female belly dancers made the evening. So onto something new...I can't wait and I'm very excited...or maybe you all couldn't tell that.

I am also looking into a personal trainer. YIKES, I am really getting very serious about this whole fitness and exercise stuff!! that is totally a good thing though in my book. My flabby arms need for the rest of the body, it's not falling far behind it..

So off to the phone book for exercise clubs and then we'll see what happen


Tuesday, March 27, 2007

How do you handle bad news

Scott Johnson
Of Middletown, DE, went to be with The Lord on Sunday March 18, 2007, surrounded by his loving family at the age of 38.
Scott was born in Santa Maria, CA, the son of Donald E. Johnson and Jeannie Baer and has made Delaware his home for the majority of his Life. Scott who had a strong belief in God attended New Castle Baptist Church. Scott was a 1986 graduate of Newark High School and received a Bachelor's of Arts in Finance from Wilmington College in 1999. He worked as a Financial Analyst in the local Banking business for Discover Card and Bank of New York. Scott enjoyed chatting on line with his friends, karaoke, bowling, reading the Bible and Christian rock music, but most important to him was his family.
Scott will be sadly missed by his son Nicholas A. Johnson, mother and step-father Jeannie and Donnie Baer of Middletown, Carl and Edna Speorl, who were second parents to Scott; loving companion Michele Haley, special friend Pamela Wray, and Scott's best friend Jeff Fulton who lead Scott to Christ.
Family and friends are invited to Scott's viewing and to Celebrate his Life with his family on Thursday March 22, 2007, from 10 to 11 am at Beeson Funeral Home of Newark, 2053 Pulaski Highway, Fox Run, (302) 453-1900. His funeral service will begin at 11 am. Committal services will be held privately.
In memory of Scott a contribution may be made to The Helen Graham Center, 4735 Ogletown-Stanton Road, Newark, DE 19713.
Online condolences may be made by visiting
"A Grieco Family
Funeral Home"

This was a sweet guy I met on myspace, never formally in person but man you felt like you knew him your whole life. He was so full of energy and optimism only to have it yanked from him. He had opinions, comments and was generally a joy to speak with on any occasion. He loved karakoke (which I promised to go out and sing with him, but it never happened) I don't know him personally but always felt like we had a connection. I've been wondering where he has been, I would check his page periodically, but he never signed in after 3/1/07. What I never did was scroll down the page to his comments section. Actually the last time I looked was on Tuesday, March 20th, had I looked down on the page I would have seen that he had passed away. I feel guilt, why I have no idea. I liked him, he was a nice person....but I never met him. So I had to put this all down, it was like he was telling me from above, I'm here, I see you look further and you will see me. I even looked at the obits from the paper that day but didn't see it because it was in there the next day. So this is a case of helping me cope, and making me feel better. Isn't that horrible....I pray that he has relief and is looking down on his son and can guide him through all the things he knew he wouldn't be here for.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Mondays, stalls and more bs

So here we are on Monday again, or shall I say the worst day of the work week. Of course this is leading up to the busiest Monday I'll have here at work. I'm on a stall, this one lasting at least two weeks right now. It's frustrating, down right disheartening and overall BLAH!!! I can't stand stalls. That is one thing that I will never get used to with this plan. I'm firmly sitting at 184, TTOM came roaring it's ugly head on Friday and enough said on that. I've noticed in the past few months that the coincidence of TTOM and the week before and after leave me stalled. The pot of gold to this situation is that next week I should show a significant weight loss. Still I have yet to take 4 month pictures nor have I done my measurements feeling like the bloated pig that I feel like.

The weekend was beautiful, it sure does amood and a person right to see some sun, warmer temps and the hope that all is not lost and winter is finally leaving. GOODBYE and we'll see you next year. It's funny that I say this because every year when fall comes knocking on the door I'm so excited to see the warmer days and cooler nights, the leaves changing and all the things that are associated with fall, but winter! well gah I hate it. It seems to me that after Christmas, which is coincidently only three days after the beginning of winter I'm over it and ready to move on! Terrible but that is how it is. So we have changed the clocks back to daylight savings and I'm out walking nights again. I forget how wonderful that feels even if it is still a bit chilly.

The bs, well the gf moved back with the idiot bf. I know it's not my life, but I am the one who she calls when things fall apart. He's a bipolar drunk....enough said about that issue. It's her life and I hope to god she doesn't get hurt, mentally or physically by this jerk off.

So today went by quick. Of course if it were 5:00 pm already I'd be happier but suffice to say we are close enough....hopefully tomorrow I will have new pics and new measurements and be happy as a lark.


Friday, March 23, 2007

Spring showers make...........

for alot better day today than last week at this time. Today it's 61 with rain showers last week at this time the rain was changing to ice that would drive us out of work early and cripple our little state!! I'm glad it's raining, that's all I have to say on that one.

I did not watch AI this week, I think for this season at least I'm over it. I don't like the top 12, thought overall they really just didn't have the talent that we've seen in the past few seasons, so I'm over it.

I need to watch Survivor, thank god for On Demand from comcast. They changed the night this week to Wed due to March Madness, I already watch another show at that time on that night, so I need to watch it soon. It was really weird with no survivor last night :(

I'm having horrible cramps and a terrible period, I'm sure that you all really needed to hear that right!

I'm very disappointed in my gf, the one who hooked up with the alcoholic, bipolar dude who is not divorced!! So, she recently left him after he wanted to go on a three day bender, now mind you this is the same guy who just two weeks earlier went on a three day bender. What do I mean about three day benders, well it's just drink, drink, sleep, no nothing else, he doesn't remember anything that happens in that time period so basically he's a worthless nobody to anyone...and ya wonder why his soon to be ex wife left him...HELLOOOO!!!! I think we all know why. Well that disappointment comes from the fact that she couldn't find anything better to do with her life yesterday, so she spent the night there. She justifies it as we are dating...well yeah but he's a loser and you left him, so WHY THE FUCK are you over there!! I'm beyond disappointment at this point, I'm just plain ole sick and tired of her insecurities and selfishness....can't she see that this guy is no good for her or her 6 year old son...what would his father think of this whole situation..oh right I have to shut my big fucking mouth about the whole thing because he can't know. If you have to keep that many secrets and cut yourself off from everyone and everything it has to be no good!! BLINDERS it's all I can say.

The flowers are starting to bud and bloom out there, so that helps lighten the mood a tad...

It's FRIDAY!! so that in itself is a major mood lightener.

Work has been boring this week....that is a crazy thing but true....

ok so I'm out, everyone enjoy the weekend!


Tuesday, March 20, 2007

End of Winter blahs............... :)~~

Why is it everyone gets the end of winter blahs. You know that time when you want it to be spring so bad and have warm sun shining on your face instead you wake up to 30 degree weather and windchill!! Where I am, it's horrible. It is affecting peoples personalities and everything. It's like a full moon landed and has turned the world into something ungodly from one of those b-rated movies that no one wants to watch but does. I know I have been feeling them for the last week or so, ever since we had that little sneak of sun, warmth and spring. The temps turned bad at the end of the last week, ice storm and blah!! I'm so tired of looking out the windows and seeing gray instead of green grass and leaves on trees and blue sky with a big ball of sunshine just calling me to come out and bask in it.

I have been in a bad funk, I don't know what it is and to be quite honest I can't seem to shake it right now. Every little thing is ticking me off, I want to run home and hide in the covers and sleep and not come out until summer.

On a brighter note, if there is one here, today is my four month surgiversary. The numbers are in today and I'm down 62.5 lb since surgery. It's amazing the transformation that my body is going through. I'm solidly wearing 14's albeit they are a bit loose at the end of the day but the 12's are too tight still. It's the agonizing time of being in between sizes that drives me batty. I'm tired of the winter clothes and trying to mix and match the same 20 things to make a new outfit!! lol I forgot to measure and take pictures this a.m. so I am noticing that as time draws on I'm losing my "newness" of the surgery. For the past three days I've been the bottomless pit, I'm sure it has alot to do with TTOM but seriously folks it needs to end!!

I have a new flirt in my life, I just wish I could get serious about this whole thing, but alas I can't. I'm stuck in a doomed marriage and I can't seem to get the umph to get out of it. Of course it doesn't help since he's a PIA about the whole thing, I mean cmon we don't even share the same likes and things's a sad state of affairs. I wish he would just be done with it and take his stuff and go, but of course I know that is not going to happen. Maybe I need to disappear. YEAH RIGHT!!

Anyhow this could go on for days, weeks, months and years but the way I feel now, I'm rambling and it's all just blah, blah I'm out


Monday, March 19, 2007

Hopefully spring is around the corner

Friday turned into the day from h*ll on the way home, with ice and snow. Of course we had rain earlier in the day so it prohibited the road crews from laying down the pre-treatment and it was horrific on the way home. A simple 15-20 minute trip took me an hour. Thank goodness it stopped overnight and then we had one of two bowling sessions cancelled on sat morning. Ds2 took the second one that night in a very relaxed and fun atmosphere scoring his highest series without handicap to date, 496. Sunday was bowling again, did I tell you I'm sick of bowling right now, alas three more weeks and it's over!!

Sat I did treat myself to a new color and cut, I like the color but am not jazzed about the cut right now, too many short bangs, well at least they will grow in!!

Up to the 40's today and near 50 tomorrow, hopefully the end of the week we will be back in the 70's and stay there for a long hot summer


Friday, March 16, 2007

Fridays and snow??

Well I would have to say that the groundhog must be totally wrong, or it is just a big ole joke! We are six weeks past groundhog day and guess what we are having snow, sleet and freezing rain. It totally sux and that is for valley girlesq

I hear there are tons of accidents out there and things are quickly going downhill. Hopefully they will see the light here and let us out early. But I doubt it.

Good news, I'm 184.....less than 50 lb from goal...yeah!!


Thursday, March 15, 2007

Crazy spring days

Ok so this a.m. it's mild outside. I'd think about 55-60 degrees. Went out at lunch it's a beautiful balmy 72 degrees. Driving back into work an hour later it's a cold, blustery 55 degrees again and now they are saying it's dropping down to 30 tonight and 1-3" of snow tomorrow. Where did our spring go? I feel cheated!! It came for a day or two and now it's gone.

I'm ready for pedicures, open toe shoes, no nylons, shorts, tanks, bathing suits....

sigh...tomorrow will be pants, socks and a sweater

Now that is definitely no fun!!


Wednesday, March 14, 2007

New Picture

Ok, total slacker here again, no excuses. I'm down 61.5 lb now, it's amazing to me. We are coming out of our winter shells here so the clothing is not so big and bulky and I'm getting compliments like's crazy. Sometimes I see it and sometimes I don't. I think that is the mind perception that people speak of. I'm exercising regularly and eating well, no dumping thank god!! The oldest ds is back at football practice so I've been getting him after work then home to get things done around there.

My good friend recently introduced me to Stampin Up stamps, I'm's sad and horrible but keeps me occupied and I've bought way too much stuff already!

So that's my life so far, 70's today and tomorrow then back to the 40's spring is almost here and I'm so glad it was a long cold winter here


Monday, March 05, 2007

A new milestone

I'm so excited this past weekend I hit two milestones....the first one came Friday, I weighed in at 190, same as dh...yippee....well today I'm 188 officially in the 180's and below dh for the first time since I've known him. Of course he's not happy about it but tough!! lol

It's been a busy time, so sorry for the lack of blogging.

Hopefully soon I can catch up on here.