Monday, April 30, 2007


Find myself so tired from the weekends and the glorious weather and trying to cram as much possible into my life before I'm stuck inside at work all week. Today is no exception. I can not get over the amount of exercise I got in yesterday. First I did my stretching and weights at home, then we walked 2 miles, then off to the grocery store for fixins for chicken and steak fajitas then after an early dinner I was off again for another walk around the neighborhood. When I got back ds1 was out playing basketball and asked if I'd join him for a bit, well I didn't even hesitate, I jumped right in, of course I only last about 25-30 minutes but I was sweaty and definitely got my workout in on that one. Of course other things transpired throughout the day, but it was go, go, go all day long!! Saturday I took advantage of the nice but cooler weather and did a 5 miles hike around one of our downtown parks, it was a beautiful day with the fountains running and all the flowering trees at their finest so I also got some photo time in!! I have missed that. The most amazing thing to me is I wasn't even wiped out from all the activity and the best thing is I'm only 2 lb from hitting the 160's...wahoo.

Have a great Monday everyone, I'm feeling very powerful today!


Friday, April 27, 2007

It's Friday!

I'm so excited. Tonight we have stamp a stack class then D and I are going out. Yeah, it's been a long week and I'm psyched. I have my new size 9 pants to wear!! woot I have a nice light green sweater I was going to wear also, but it's chilly out there, not the 75 degrees that were promised, but we'll see. At least the rain has moved on, that was no fun this morning coming in.

Yesterday I had a 1/2 of Wendy's chili for lunch, now this is not the first time I've had chili but man did it talk back to me last night. Of course I put the other 1/2 in the fridge here at work for today and woops I forgot, so after my workout I had no time to get something else, so I had it again and it's talking back already....I guess my new system is refining itself again and is on bean overload right now. Anyhow, I've been really trying to watch what I eat, I have felt like I was on a stall, but realistically based on the amount of weight I have left to lose I'm still losing at 20% per month, so that made me very :)

This weekend is supposed to be nice, so we'll get some more gardening in and general clean up of my messy yard. I think my neighbors are very happy with me that I actually have the energy to spruce it up and make it look nice....

Question for you ladies out there....since WLS I've had regular periods until this past month, then I had two, now let me tell you the PMS is ferocious, worst than I've ever had before. Could this be the hormones running rampant in my body?? Or should I be worried about this?

have a great weekend

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Support meeting this week

Well the long awaited meeting with the psychiatrist was this past Tuesday. What a great meeting it was. She had a three part presentation based on before and after patients based on the following issues. a) Depression/hibernation b) anxiety c)body dismophia. Now this third item, body dismorphia is what really interested me. I have been suffering that for a while now. I know in my brain that I'm down to 10's or 12's depending on cut, but when i shop I still reach for 18's and 20's or when I look in the mirror the girl looking back at me is basically still chubby, not as fat as she once was but chubby. My biggest question is does this ever end? Well thank god the answer is yes. I am still having lots of struggles with coming to terms of all the loose skin and rolls that slowly melting but I need to love myself. I work on this everyday and hopefully soon it will all come together. I know I am only 5 months out and have a long way to go but these are things I worry or think about. I also dream some nights that when I wake up that the surgery will have reversed itself and I'll be right back where I started. I know this sounds completely lunatic but it's my reality.

Now I know overall my family supports me 100% on my decision to have this surgery, my father and I have spoken in detail regarding how much better off I will be now that the weight is gone before I hit my 50s or even 60s, he struggles everyday with it and I don't want to be like that. He's been overweight most of his adult life, it's a hard struggle as we all know, but he works as diligently as he can at 65 on improving himself. He's had heart attacks, strokes, and a hip replacement, no slacker in working out anymore but he just stalls. My dh on the other hand now thinks I'm too thin, he didn't marry a thin girl, I was about 25 lb heavier when we married than I am now and he doesn't like it. I told him 20-30 more and that should do it, but we'll see. He's not happy, I'm not currently happy with him. Actually I've been evaluating when I've been happy with him. Not a good scenerio for right now, maybe another post. I am out enjoying my life, dancing, getting out, hanging with gfs, crafting all the things that I wouldn't/couldn't do before and I'm personally miserable. Go figure.

Well I've bored us all to tears today, my mood is dark as the weather is too. Tomorrow night is crafting, which will instantly perk me up!!


Monday, April 23, 2007

Mondays, glorious spring

So Friday night was a total blast. We stayed out till 4am and had the best times of our lives. We started at Polidoro at 10pm for Salsa lessons. They were fun and easy to get the moves down the first or second time. Now I'm definitely no expert but I felt a little more informed after I left. We then left there and headed over to Tailgates, another favorite local bar. Saw some friends of ours from another band and met some guys from yet another band who had to cancel their engagement in VA due to their lead singer being in jail :( Sorry to see they were there that night but it was great for networking. At last call Mary Sue wisked us all in her Volvo station wagon down to Slackers in MD for their last call...saw alot of people from Tailgates there along with some new ones...then she was hungry so off for pancakes at 2:30am in the

Saturday I was up at 9:30 and out the door by noon, the weather was perfect! Read a book with a picnic lunch in the park, went home and relaxed some more, early to bed though!!

Sunday up early, outside working on the yard getting things cleaned up!! Lots of sun and today I'm burnt, feels good all that Vit D!!

Back at work still in the 80's but it will come to an end this week. This Friday is stamping class then off to the bar again, more networking to be done!!


Thursday, April 19, 2007

Thank god it's almost Friday

That's all I have to say about this week. I fell asleep on the couch at 8pm last night, that's how rough it's been. Enough said

Tomorrow I leave at 2:30 to take ds1 to the doctor then off to drop him at his dad's...then home to hopefully find something to wear for Salsa dancing tomorrow night. Gee I feel like I'm in my 20's going out on the town for the night. I'm so undecided what to wear.

It's rainy and gloomy again today, at least the temps are moderating a little today, so the plus side is tomorrow is Friday, 65 degrees and SUNNY!!! GOD I can't wait for it.

So I also got home last night and got presents in the mail, new stamps for me. I'm so glad the order is finally in. Now to mount and figure out something to stamp!! I will post pics soon


Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Have you ever.........

had a co-worker that just drove you crazy beyond belief. Yep, that's me living in that hell right now. I have this new assistant who is supposed to assist me, well he's ok for entering things in the computer and it seems to end there. What can I say, I remind him over and over again of things that need to be done and then I hear from the suppliers or whatnot that it's not done. When I was out of the office for a few days a couple of weeks back I wondered if he kept up on the daily reports or anything, well it appears not. I know he does enough good work but his quality of work is just not there. I really don't know what to do about it, I repeat the things over and over but there has to come a time that you need to "just get it" or get the f out of here. He seems more interested in smoozing with others and advancing himself here instead of doing the job he was hired for. What can I say this is a bit of a bitch session for me. What else isn't

At home, ds2 did miserably on his last report card, and he wonders why he's grounded. Um, hello you were out sick, you had a folder of makeup work to do and you didn't do it. I know I had asked him quite a few times about it but there was always it's been taken care of response. Now how is this my fault!! GAH

I felt good today giving away the 14's to a coworker, she's happy too, now she has a bag and 1/2 to go through and hopefully she will like something in there. I can't believe I'm in 10's and 12's. Never in a million years would I have thought this would be possible in only 5 months. I hope that I remember to take the monthly picture this month. I have forgotten this past one, I can't believe it, but also I was at a huge stall, so maybe that's where my head was.

I still have more summer clothes to sort through and give away, maybe this weekend I will start unloading them out of the closet, my poor closet right now consists of a few items I wear and lots of hangers. My drawers are virtually ghost towns and to think I gave away scads of clothes and still have more to go, now I know why we were always broke!! Too much shopping, like there is a such an animal.

This Friday is our first salsa dancing lesson. I know a few weeks back I was very stoked about this whole adventure and I still am, I just can't believe it's here. Hopefully I will do good and not fall on my ass and embarass myself. I love to dance, just sometimes I have no coordination for it.

I think that's it for the moment. Thanks for letting me rant and now I feel better


Tuesday, April 17, 2007

First things first

I have to pass along my condolences to all the family and friends who have lost loved ones at VT, it is my ds1 top 3 schools to look at for college this summer! He's a little shaken by the whole ordeal, but as I explained to him last night, it could happen to anyone, anywhere at any school. Overall I've heard nothing but great things from there, so the trip down is still on!!

-So the gf is at her new job, she emails I'm here
-DH is on his rag, I never knew a man to have so many mood swings in my life, I think he's going to breakdown if he doesn't get a job soon
-DS2 dropped two classes three grades and wonders why he's grounded until I say otherwise!
-I'm broke, I've paid up all of our bills and we are broke until next week, I need dh to get a job NOW!!!!!
-DH has six, count them, 1,2,3,4,5, 6 weeks left on his unemployment for the year!! GAH
-I'm in a size 10/12 depending on the cut :)
-I want winter to pack it up and take a hike somewhere else
-It's supposed to hit near 70 next week :)
-Less than one month and I'm 43
-The dog is so bad, did I ever mention how bad he is. Well that's another blog for another day
-I need a real vacation, palm trees and warm weather and sunshine
-I want to move and get a new job
-Maybe I can do the above once I hit the powerball
-I'm too broke to play powerball
-My grandma just turned 95 last week, god bless her soul

So some little things to throw out there, I feel better

Friday, April 13, 2007


Yeah it's Friday, for a short week it's been long for me! I'm down to 177.5 this a.m. That is so freakin fantastic I can't believe it!!

This weekend, I'm on a mission for some new work clothes, maybe a few slacks and shirts. I'm definitely out of the 14's maybe 12's or even 10's will be the new size!! I'm so torked it's amazing. My new tattoo....oh did I forget to write that!! silly me, is all healed. Here's a picture, I designed it myself. Love the butterflies symbolizing my new life:

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This weekend is going to be busy and fly by quickly I am sure. Tomorrow we head off to Baltimore to go to the Aquarium and see the Australia exhibit, I'm very excited to be doing this and then Sunday I'm on my shopping mission. I have staked out a couple of the outlet's and goodwill's and will be browsing through the mdse there to see what catches my fancy. Hopefully lots of stuff!!

Work is work, enough said about that subject.

DS1 is home on his spring break until Monday, then we are all back in the program. DS2 has a urinary tract infection, poor guy!! Me, I'm good, just suffering through the allergy season like the trooper I am!!

have a great weekend all!


Thursday, April 12, 2007


Is all I can say....after being stuck int he 180's for what I felt like forever the scale has now moved into the 170's....yipppeeeee

The mini vacation was nice, well spent time off with the family enjoying things. Unfortunately for us the weather did not cooperate and was cool, cloudy and cold....gah

We did spend some quality time up at my dad's though and that was great, it's always good to see him, he's just puttering along and things are doing nicely for him and his girl..

Not much else to report except that the gf who is a jerk, refer to an earlier post went back to her idiot bf and then had the nerve to call me names. Ok, if she wants to live her life with a drug induced alcoholic that is her problem. I can't be around to always save her ass and I don't know if she really knows this or not, but she will soon enough.

I'm not going to make this a bitchy post, I promised myself I wouldn'
ciao for now

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Vacation time

I have been very busy at work this past week and my weight loss has shown the stress. Happily I maintained during this time, but man what difference a few months make. I'm still down 70lb since surgery so I'm very, very pleased.

I'm taking a few days off to spend time with the kiddies and take them on some day trips. It should be lots of fun. The weather although is a different story around here. It was 70 on Monday and now I believe if I'm lucky I would think it's about 40 with 20-30 mph winds gusting to 50mph....Winter revisited..

There was actually a snow squall out there this morning, frightening to think since it is APRIL after all...hello!! One groundhog got that whole thing wrong this year in my humble opinion.

So I will see you all after I get back.