Wednesday, August 08, 2012

Good morning out there, it has been a very long time and a lot has happened in my life once again.  I had a heart attack July 2011, it was mild but sent my life into a whirlwind spiral downwards.  Of course at the time I had no idea that the following events would happen.  So I was out on leave for two weeks to recoup, then I sank into what was finally diagnosed as chronic fatigue syndrome, where I was sleeping anywhere from 16-20 hours a day!  Yes, a DAY!!  I was in this state for almost six months, talk about losing a part of your life.  I wish in hindsight that I was able to blog during this time to keep a "journal" per se of what was going on.  Anyhow, I was put on sleeping meds and anti-depressants, finally able to turn it around with my own willpower also took myself off both of these medications as they were actually making me feel worse once I was feeling better.  My job was relocated to FL during this time, at the end of December 2011, hence I am unemployed and have been since this time.  I spend most of my days job hunting and just trying to keep busy so I don't get too upset and let the anxiety set in.  I did have a few months of work at my local nursery during the spring, but once again the weather turned cold and gloomy and they no longer needed my services in May :(  I have sent 1000's of resumes out and have had a few job interviews, but overall it stinks out there, but I don't think I need to tell anyone that!!  lol  I am blessed to have a good friend who is letting me stay with her, she is never here and I keep up the house and I get some assistance for food and needs so overall I am not destitute.  It's those little things that I have to remember that make me a lucky person.

I do have some good in all of that gloom!  My son's band is having a jam at the end of the month prior to the beginning of the school year, he is also a senior this year!  He made honor roll the last marking period of his eleventh year which is a first for him and I couldn't be more proud.  Considering our circumstances that is great news!  He has been very active this summer with his friends, band and is now in FL visiting relatives for a few weeks.  I miss him horrible, but it is a nice little break. 

I also have been helping care for the "girls" mom, who is disabled and had shoulder surgery in early May, she is healing nicely but she also has two bum hips so they will be next on her bucket list of surgeries to get herself right.  I don't mind I cook and clean and just generally make sure she is ok and comfortable and fed.

So that is my life, it is now time to go job hunt!!  and thanks for all the comments that have been coming along.  Things are not the best but could be so much worse right!!