Waiting impatiently....

to hear from the doctors for my approval. She said she submitted the forms on Friday last and should hear in 2-3 days. Hello it's Wednesday now so we are on day three. I wish they would just call for pete's sake so I can move on in mind and mentally prepare for this! I am to arrive at the hospital at 3pm on Monday, not quite sure how I am going to make it through the day without drinking or eating, but it's a must!! I has to happen. Other than that I've been busy at work, tying up odds and ends in preparation for being out for two weeks. We've also finished football, team had an unfortunate 1-9 season. Better luck next year boys!!

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We are counting down now..........

I am within two weeks now. Actually the surgery is a week from this Monday. Everything is done, all the labs, hospital pre-op visits, endless doctor appointments and now I wait. Actually I am waiting to hear that the insurance is approving the surgery also. I'm excited and have been so busy in fact too busy to blog! oy

This is the last weekend of football, so things are winding down in our life in that aspect. I can't wait to move to the losing side of things.

ciao for now have a great weekend
me

It's done

All the pre-requisite appt are over and I've been cleared by them all! So I'm ready, well almost. I have my pre-op appt at the hospital next Tuesday, they said it will take about 3 hours and then on to the first of two appt at the dietician, the second half had to be postponed because the dietician isn't there on that particular Tuesday. Then next Thursday I have my final pre-op appt at the doc's...I'm excited...can you tell, can you tell? It's almost a dream come true up to this point. I'm hoping for a speedy recovery and uneventful surgery. So as of today, I have a little less than three weeks and I'll be re-born so to say.

On the homefront, things have been busy so to say, football is winding down. I will miss it when we don't have it anymore, but man it will be nice to have my nights and weekends back for me. Now the next step for this son is to firm up some colleges so we can plan visits this spring. I just hope he likes what is going on as it's hard to tell sometimes. As for the other son, well bowling will last until March, so I do have my Sat mornings busy for a while still. Then I have to start thinking about Christmas shopping because sheesh it's less than two months away at this point! I don't know if my sister's from SC are coming up, but I will need to find that out also!

We are planning our turkey day celebration early due to the surgery, so I think that the 12 of Nov is going to be our big day. It's almost weird not to have a regular turkey day this year I think! I also have not told my family about the surgery yet so come Christmas there should be some suprise when they see me!

So I'm off to finish out some work and off for the little trick or treaters tonight....how fun it is too see all the wee ones dressed up!

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It's almost time

I can't believe it. Monday I went in for my EGD and they said everything looked great. Well I got home and there was a message from my doc's office and they wanted to schedule my date!! wahoo is all I can say! So I called back and my date is 11/20. Lot's of fast calls yesterday afternoon and I'm set up for my pre-admission testing and the dietician all on the day off next month. I will still have to get my pulmonologist done which is 10/30 but that shouldn't be a problem, also I have to get my final surgery clearance but he can do it at night if I need to. I'm almost there and very happy about this whole ordeal, it's been so far so good. Now the last hurdle to cross is the insurance ok but that should go through fine from what I've heard!

Other than that life is busy, football, bowling and everything that goes along with it! I can't believe we are two months away from Christmas and to be honest it's the farthest thing from my mind at this point! I know the kids will be upset but it will all work out, it always does!

So next year this time, I will be a new person. Now to get some before pics so we can do comparisons...lol

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Why is it..........

that when you want to speak with someone in the doctor's office all you ever get is their answering machine. I've been calling my contact for four days now....count em, 1, 2, 3 and 4 and all I ever get is her answering machine or the office is now closed message...I mean c'mon if you leave a message she never returns it but if they need something, you have to drop everything and get on the phone with them.

Now don't get me wrong, I think they are all wonderful and caring people there but man, stress is my middle name trying to get this accomplished. I will call back again on my break and hopefully get a live person instead of the machine!!

On a brighter note, tomorrow is Friday and I'm scheduling myself for a day off I think. I've been tossing this around for a bit now and since I have to be at school at 2:30 I think I'm just going to call out. Ho Hum, I know I'm needed here but I have things to take care of.....

we'll see how I feel tomorrow.

more later
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I'm so excited

Things are really coming together. As of today I spoke with Mistee at the doc's office, she urged me to contact another pulmonologist and schedule an earlier appt. So I called and got one for next week, WOW is all I can say the original I called back in Sept and was waiting for my 11/7 appt. So by next Tuesday I should be done!! WOW again.

I will call her again tomorrow after my psyche appt and see if she wants to put a date down or not! I'm really getting excited and it will be the best pre-Christmas present ever. I don't know how that will hamper any holiday plans but it's really great for me.

I have been the usual busy, football, bowling and running. Last night was our work Wine Expo which was a great success as always, of course I'm drop dead tired today but I expected that. It doesn't help that it is also raining out. So after a few days of 50's and 60's we are going back to the 70's and summerlike weather again. No wonder everyone and their brother is sick!!

Tonight is a relaxation one for sure. Last night the wash, some shopping and vacuuming was done by the time I got home so that was an added bonus for me!! More time to relax tonight...lol

that's it for now, keep ya posted

me

Time flies when you are having fun

Someone once said that. Interesting enough that is sounds not the case for me and the last few days since my post. I have been basically busy at work and dropping dead of exhaustion in bed every night since then. NO FUN!!!

I feel like I'm getting my first cold of the season so at lunch I took an Airborne, I hope they live up to their name and keep me well!! Anyhow, tomorrow is bowling, hair and football game, so that brings me home around dinner and I'm in for the rest of the weekend hopefully catching up on some rest and laundry and cleaning and everything else. LOL

have a great one.

me

Where is the week going

WOW it's been a short bit since I've last been in here. I have had a running weekend and hoping things will slow down a bit shortly, as I've got to catch my breath. I did get my hair done Sat which was the highlight of my weekend, new color and cut and I'm very happy with it, it's so different than before...see below


old style


new style

but unfortunately as always the blond starts bleeding through very soon. The football games were both a loss for this weekend, Friday night was cold and windy and yesterday was warm and sunny. However, Nick did play well in Monday's game. GO NICK!!!

Work has been hectic and with me missing pieces of time here and there, well I should be working and not blogging....giggle

So that's it for me right now..

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Sports

I never wanted to become one of those mother's who ran their kids to death with sports and after school activities, but this year it seems to me that I've bit off more than I can chew right now. I have one who is playing Varsity and JV football, so that requires 5 day a week practice on top of the two games a week he attends and plays in. So all in all we are running 6 days for him. They the other one has afterschool everyday and then Sat morning bowling. UGH is all I can say right now. Tonight is a Friday Night Lights game away, it doesn't start until 7pm and that means we'll be home around 11 -11:30pm tonight. Then I am up again tomorrow at 7am so we can be at bowling at 8:30. After that I have my weekend "free" as they say but then I have wash, cleaning and groceries to do. I feel like I'm just too spread thin some days!

Then tomorrow after bowling we will get home around noonish and he will want to go out and eat or "do" something, I will be thoroughly exhausted and forget it. Then he whines, you never want to do anything, well help me for pete's sake. Right now there are clothes in the dryer, clean dishes in the washer and the sink is full of dirty ones. I am one person and cannot do everything! Repeat, cannot do everything. I have the oldest ds down there routing through clothes to get "what he needs" and is too much of a hurry to bring up the rest of them. So they sit and will remain there until I get around to it.

Seems like this post is turning into a bit of a bitch session, but it's my blog, if I want to bitch then I will damnit!! lol

So the big news for the weekend around our parts is TO is coming back to town to play his old team. Whoppee is what I say about it. Granted he is a good player but everything else he does and says who cares, I'm just plain sick of it. I hope the Eagles putting a pounding on the Cowgirls and send them home with their tails between their legs. Speaking of football, I would love to see another Bears game televised. Although they are usually few and far between they have a great team this year, really seem to be jelling and if things continue, I can see them going all the way to the Super Bowl. Good luck Bears!!

Oh and wls news, well I received a call from the doc's office Wed night, they indicated that they will be in network (for insurance purposes) through 12/15 right now. So they scheduled my EGD test 10/23 and now I have to complete everything and get the surgery done sooner than I wanted. No problem with me, maybe with work, but it will have to do. I want this done and don't want to loose my opportunity since the insurance is up in the air. Once I have it, I will worry about everything else later.


So I'm off now, to try and enjoy the blaance of this rainy Friday. Hopefully things will run smoother than I expect this weekend.

me

Happy humpday

So as days go today is a good day because I thought all day long it was Tuesday. The way I see I'm one up on the week!

Been having horrible pains in my abdomen. Have no friggin clue what they could be as I have taken gas pills to no avail. Hopefully they will pass soon as they are killing me.

We had a little Fun Day today at work. It was an interesting way to try and rejuvenate us. I had fun, not sure about the rest.

Not much else to report
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Monday Mayhem

Ok folks it's really cranking up around here with activities, afterschool and whatever. The weekend was a blur. Got to go to a really cool open house for a new Salon/Spa in my neighborhood, they had great food, drinks and met some really fabulous people. Afterward I took my gf to The Blue Parrot. A little bit of Mardi Gras right up here in DE and we had a drink, noshed some and talked. It was great!

To rewind earlier Sat was a washout in the football game dept. 37-0 washout plus the rain came right at the end of the game. DS did get to play, defense this time and did well. So for him it was a good day, too bad this team can't win a game to save their life. Today is JV after school, of course I couldn't make it due to work restraints but I'm sure he's doing well, and hopefully winning for a change!!

DS2 is starting his afterschool stuff so he'll be late, Monday, Wed and Thursday, hopefully it will give him some sense and help him get a better report card.

ok for now I'm rushing
me

Weekends are a wonderful time

for anything. Really, anything goes on a weekend. Tonight we have to hurry and get to bowling prior to the Friday night leagues coming in so I can attend ds1 football game tomorrow morning. Let me tell you I am really looking forward to that since it's going to be a crisp, clear and cool morning tomorrow for the game. Then the rest of the weekend is free for me! It is going to be a glorious weekend for anything. Oh I do have plans tomorrow night, Dawn and me are going to an Open House at a new salon/spa that my hairdresser works at now. It should be lots of fun and neat door prizes too, I hope one of us wins something. Then afterward we are off to the Blue Parrot for snacks and drinks. All in allshould be great fun.

So yesterday I had my doc appt. Man are these appt long, I was there in the office from 12:30 to 3:30. Thank goodness I was approved for surgery from him and I had a EKG and ECHO done and they say I have a very healthy heart!! Imagine that, I felt very humbled by that since the family history speaks otherwise... So one down and two to go on my journey.

Ciao for the weekend
me

Another day

Well I went out this a.m. to the park to meet the "man" who was a no show. Now you would say I set myself up for some disappointment, right?, wrong! I was actually relieved that he didn't show, how crazy is that! Well last night I was thinking about it, he really wasn't with me on this whole surgery thing and I am totally with it. So it wouldn't work, he would complain and not be supportive and what I need is support not a whiner right. Also, unfortunately for him he has terminal cancer. I believe it's in his stomach region which probably makes for a tender subject with him anyhow. Well, I'm glad I brought out my IPOD, I sat on the bench enjoying the nice fall morning, listening to my songs and just breathing and being a part of the earth. It's a very peaceful park, with the river right there and a walking trail along side for those who desired. normally I would have walked but I have the cardio doc at 1pm and I need to scoot soon to get there early and fill out the paperwork (new patient) so I didn't. I also want to stop and get some mums for my pots and something for dinner so the afternoon should be full. Hopefully I won't be at the cardio doct for hours and hours like the original consult but we will see. I called out of work sick just in case. I'm not ready for them to become suspicious. tootles for now
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Embarrassment

Ok, I totally got caught up in the guy thing and totally forgot about my huge, red faced embarrasement in the OB/GYN office yesterday. This may become a bit graphic, but since it's my blog I want to vent it all....so I've arrived, I get on the scale and it's horrible, not so bad yet, I have my BP done and with driving it is always a bit on the high side as other drivers make me so nervous. Still we aren't doing too bad yet. Well she then tells me to change, no changing room anymore! so the clothes are neatly folded on the seat; put on the gown (ties to the front) and drape the paper over your lap. Ok the gown I was given probably wouldn't even fit a large girl, and I'm a 1-2x girl, so that's not even meeting to tie, bad enough I'm sitting there with the paper draped but it won't come up enough to cover me, so literally I'm hanging out so when the door opens viola anyone in the hall can see me. Ok so this is bad but yes it does get worse!

So I'm sitting there and we are chatting about things, me, my home, how am I, any complaints. We are just chatting along and she comes over to listen to my heart. Ok, not so bad you think right, wrong! When listening to the front chest she lobs my boob up to hear underneath, it makes this slurping sound that is horrible from sweating stuck to the skin below it! Ewww. Not the worst, the fat rolls cannot get out of the way enough for her to hear clearly so sit back a bit so I can listen. I'm sure I was as red as Santa's suit at this point. I've become very quiet and almost distant!!

What was I thinking and why am I wondering about why I want this surgery done!!

me

Self doubt has set in

Now that I've technically "met" someone and we are really going to meet up tomorrow, he states he likes me the way I am. What do I mean by this, well it's simply that he likes my weight (on the thick side) and isn't 100% about this WLS that I am pursuing. Well now the self doubt sets in. I really want it, it's what I've been working hard for about 3 years now. I know in the long run my health and well being will be better but WOW, this is the first guy I've ever met that likes me just the way I am.

So as I am standing in a crossroad, I ponder what route I shall take. Interestingly enough I have one of my appts, cardiologist, right before we meet up tomorrow, talk about strange. So here I stand in the middle of a road and wondering which way I will turn.

On another note, tonight my oldest ds officially gets his license. Talk about a thrilling time in his life. I'm very excited and sad for him growing up and yet that much closer to leaving me. I know this is the start of the separation anxiety all parents feel when their little chicks growup and leave the nest.

So this blog is going to go all over the place today, what a beautiful fall day. The warm days and cooler nights are sticking with us, and suiting me just fine. I love fall, just wish it wouldnt' turn to winter so quickly.

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Autumn

Is here, not officially yet until tomorrow but it has slowly been creeping into our area already. The mornings have been brisk 40-50's and the days warm 70's -low 80's. I love autumn, the changing of the leaves, the warm days, cool evenings, the football season is back, the trees changing colors. Of course that means that old man winter is right around the corner, and I'm not too fond of winter but it is the way it is in the mid-Atlantic states and it's part of the cycle. I look forward also to my surgery and my "new" me next summer, a thinner, healthier person than I am now. To be able to enjoy shopping and clothes, to actually be impressed and excited to get dressed and not just "cover up" the areas!

Autumn is a time of transition, the days start getting shorter, the nights longer. We all feel sleepier and prepare for the long incubation before the first thaw of spring and the buds on the trees. It is wonderous and dreaded for many. Some suffer from the seasonal change. I brace myself for weeks before the actual time change but it comes nonetheless and I deal as I do every year. So I guess I use this as a time of reflection, to sort out how the year was and what the rest of the year holds. What a great time to be alive!

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Co-Workers

Can be the nicest people when they want something or pia's when they are on their high horse. Do you work with someone like that? I do, she thinks that she knows it all, does your job for you when she feels fit to and then wants to know why something didn't happen that she tried handling like that is your fault. Well yesterday I had a day like that, I just ignored her and that's how I handle it. It's very infuriating to myself but you deal. Last night I also got the first full night's sleep in a while. It actually felt nice to get up this a.m. well slept.

So fall has made an earlier appearance here in the NE, it was a crisp 40 something degrees out there this a.m. and man it felt nice. Of course in a few months you are going to see my complaining about the cold weather but for now it's nice, warm days and cooler nights, I do love fall. Today is actually day off from all that is crazy! Believe it or not, tomorrow is the same but then Saturday we have bowling. It's really going to be a more relaxing weekend than we've had ina while and I think I will take advantage and get caught up on my cleaning and wash that's been piling up since the washer broke a couple of weeks ago and our lag in getting a new one in place right away. It is supposed to get a little warmer this weekend back up near 80 so it will definitely be a good weekend for some yard work.

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Baby steps

Is what this is all about. Baby steps to lead into surgery and baby steps to recovery and a new way of eating and living. Last night I attended my first of two required nutrition classes. It was very informative and it was also nice to meet some of the other ladies in my area that are going through the same thing as I am. I will say they are much more motivated and getting their appointments done sooner than me that's for sure. I haven't had much luck contacting the pulmnologist, although I have called we are just playing phone tag at this point. I was told since I snore and whatnot to try and get a hold of them as they will probably be the one who is the most drug out as far as processes go. So I've returned the call and now I wait! I also need to make a psychiatric appointment too. I have to get the initial bloodwork done but she said to hold off until the end of October since I want to have the surgery in January. Next week I will be attending the first of my support groups and am very excited as the guest speaker is my surgeon and the topic is Life after Surgery. I also want to get to the bookstore and pickup one of the recommended reading books, as I hear they are informative and full of great tips going into and out of surgery. So the baby steps are in place and it's hard to believe almost two weeks have past since my initial consult.

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And one more today

***You Are A Social Butterfly***


You love your friends so much...
You're motto is "the more, the merrier"!
Making sure everyone's included is your mission
And you always prefer a group of ten to a group of two


What Kind of Friend Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindoffriendareyouquiz/

These are addictive

***Your Rising Sign is Aquarius***


You are an interesting mix of introspective and outlandish.
Waving your freak flag high, you really do things your own way.

While you may seem distant, you care very deeply for humanity.
You just have no tolerance for fools, slackers, or dullards.

And while you're fairly misanthropic, many are drawn to you.
Innovative and clever, people look to you for new ideas and trends.


What's Your Rising Sign?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourrisingsignquiz/