The weekends are so fast

Tonight the oldest boy and I are back on track and accountability to each other to get back at the gym. It is a must as I have been feeling flabby. I will continue to do my yoga but I need cardio and weights back in my routine. I am getting soft! I would like to see about swimming or pool aerobics also. I read other blogs and they do it and say that it helps alot, I don't know if my gym offers it but it would be nice. I definitely need a workout buddy to make me accountable to get my butt down there.

Also, my youngest son is going to his first concert. I purchased the tickets yesterday. I know he is over the moon (at 14) and will be seeing a few bands he likes, also bands that mom likes too so it will be a great experience for us. My dad took me to my first concert when I was in 8th grade, so I guess in a way I am continuing this tradition if you want to look at it that way. So in May he will experience his first concert!

I need to journal a bit more on my foods I have decided too (at least for a while) I notice that when the boys have chips or something I'm grabbing a few here and there and well I am starting to notice the bad habits sneaking back into my life, need to nix them before they start up in full force again.

Went to Kohls and Plato's yesterday, got some great clothes the boy and me. 6 pairs of jeans and 5 shirts and I only spent 80 bucks total. You can't beat that plus they are all name brands and in great shape. Also, got cute summer shoes at Kohl's and the boy got a new pair of sneaks, we spent almost that much just on those two items there!! But it was needed. I know he is happy and has new kix as he says. lol I say we had a great day and scored some major deals though!

Off to work, I'm late and procrastinating today, as I am sleepy and don't want to get ready but if I want to travel this year I need to get my butt in gear!!

He's on his way home already

The only flight to get him back home early enough in the day left now. We had a great time in NYC, barely any rain so that was wonderful. I bet I walked a million miles. Ok, maybe not a million but quite alot. Wore my comfy shoes and it was wonderful. Today I'm taking the boy to Kohls and Plato's we are getting clothes. I love Plato's myself, it is a resell shop for higher end clothing for teens. Since I ripped one of my two pairs of jeans a few weeks back, I'm anxious to add to my one remaining pair!! lol

It's still cloudy and rainy here, but we were in such deficit of rain so far this year it is much needed. I am getting clothes done and want to check out the YMCA and see what the class schedule is like right now. I'm ready to get back into some formal exercise. I am meeting a friend for lunch who is passing through town on his way home today and just general things. I hope the sun comes out as promised and we do get up in the 60's later so I can walk!!!

The weekends are the best time of the week...

S and I had dinner last night, I came home and need to get my butt moving here shortly. Today is ds2 last day of bowling so I am taking him up there. Then up to my mom's and S and I are driving up to NYC we decided we will brave the possibility of raindrops and do some siteseeing then dinner and back home.

I am enjoying my new car, while waiting for the youngest's gf to come over last night we found out they were in an accident, it was horrible and we waited an 1 1/2 for them to drop her off due to the police taking their time to get there. Anyhow, I was one sleepy girl and late of course for my dinner with S, so our night got cut off short :( I have my plans an am flying down there for a long Easter weekend and we are going to San Antonio, I love that I am getting to do some traveling and seeing places I have never before, it is really great.

I am back on track with exercise, 4 nights this week....and I am very pleased with this. My jeans are getting a little loose too, so I am refirming up my body. I can't believe I let it go over the winter. So that is definitely a check to myself keep up on the exercise even when you DO NOT feel like doing it. I am going to get my butt back at the YMCA also, I haven't been since my hernia surgery. I was almost wondering if the workouts I used to do contributed to the hernia? I guess I will never truly know, anyhow I want to get my body and mind back on track and I am doing it one day at a time...

Enjoy the weekend I will

New thoughts

Ok I just realized...S is coming in for a visit tomorrow and I am going to be quite busy all weekend...lol yes this whole long distance thing is really working out alot better than I thought it would....pics of the new car and me, coming....it's rainy and miserable here right now, tomorrow sunny and nice and I WILL have the sunroof open...lol So I realize I really do have alot of decisions that are around me, there is my friend the mechanic, M, he is has indicated he wants more, I can't see that, then there is R my neighbor, he's ok but in the long run, I'm not sure....then there is S in TX he is fun and we have fun and yes I'm totally drawn to him....so if I had to chose today...it's S


I will all let you know how the weekend goes, he's in at 1pm tomorrow my time.....

I got a car!!!

Could I be more ecstatic...NO

I'm so excited to have wheels that move again...yeah!!!

Off to get my plane reservations made as I am leaving on a jet soon again!!

More tomorrow.

How do you feel when.......

you feel like everything is happening at once.. Ok that was my day today! I am over today....but tomorrow is a new day!

Friday is the best day this week as S is coming in to visit.

Plannin on a vacation with the boys this summer.

I enjoyed my cruise so much I want to share some great memories with my boys now!!!

I'm tired, yoga is done, no walking, eating ok better than ok and no drinks in quite a few days so I am back on track!!

I have more but that will wait as tonight I'm tired!!!

Ok, so I skipped a day

Today was the first in 5 that I skipped my yoga and walking. I was exhausted when I got home from work and threw together a healthy dinner and relaxed a bit and said ....NO. So I will get back on track tomorrow. But seriously I don't feel I'm off track, a day off is ok now and again just not too many in row!

So tomorrow I am a serious car buyer, the check is in hand and I'm ready to shop, c'mon to me some great new,used car....god I hope I pick the right one...lol

My sweetie from TX is coming to visit this weekend, he couldn't stand the thought that I couldn't get there till the 9th of April, so he's coming here again!! yeah...I seriously can't wait to see him. I had my date last night, I thought it would be good for me to get out there and date and we had fun, friends kind of fun but it wasn't the same, so I am glad he is coming to visit. I am wondering where this is going to lead me, but right now my focus is on getting a car so.

Of course today is like winter revisited here today, what else isn't new here in DE...but soon we will be all spring and then summer so I am excited....

I ate great, exercised none and well I don't feel that I have jeopardized anything with the way things are going...yeah for me!!!

Back at the grind

Back to work today after being off for a few days being ill. I am finally really starting to feel much better so that is good. I am hoping to keep my exercise factor up since I've been successful all weekend at it. It makes me feel so much better which is such a great thing. I went out last night on my date with J. We had fun, dinner and a drink (ice tea for me!! yeah) and chatted but figured out that we weren't compatible but I have a another new friend.

This morning is chilly, back in the 20's I wish spring would just come and stay....I know soon enough it will be here full time. I can imagine what my desk at work is looking like and I am lollygagging getting ready so I need to get off this computer and get my butt in gear!

What a great day

I did get out and get some pictures along with a nice long walk. It was in the upper 50's and just a gorgeous day here today. I am sharing some of the beautiful flowers starting to bloom, really makes my day to see them out finally after this long, long winter.

The boy was out too, playing basketball, and enjoying the day before he had to go to work. I'm glad I was feeling well enough to get out there....also all the cleaning is done and yoga (day 3) and tonight, I have a date. Yes, a real date, haven't been on one of them in quite a while so I figured it was time again. Meeting J at 6 and well we'll see.....

Sunday morning

It was a great day yesterday, sunny and in the 50's although the wind was a bit much at some points. I got my yoga done, a 45 walk also so that was great. I also got all the cleaning and wash caught up so I felt very accomplished. I also found out my jeep has a blown engine in it :( So that was the only bad news. So now to get those tires off to sell them, and I am waiting for my check to go get something new to me.

Today is going to be warmer, I'm going to try and get out there, I have been wanting to do some pictures for awhile now and the weather is changing and the buds are back on the trees, some flowers starting to bloom, so that is my goal today to become a wanderer and get outside!

Enjoy the day

Starting to feel a bit better....

my friend the car guy is driving down this afternoon. He wants to see my truck firsthand and see if it can be fixed or not. Of course I told him, I'm not spending any more money on it so....then we are going to grab a bite to eat before he goes home. It should be nice, especially able to get out of the house for a change. Other than that the crud is starting to go away, I feel very tired still though so a low key weekend is in store for me..

I'm down for the count

I' ve managed to catch the horrible cold going around at work. It has knocked me on my butt for the last few days and I'm not happy...I can't breathe, having horrible issues sleeping and well I'm just plain old miserable. I am now unable to attend the viewing and funeral today also. boo :(

Anyhow, happy Spring...I'm so glad it's here!

Doing pretty well all things considering......

yeah, the final plans are in the works. I was able to talk with her mom, dad and brother all at some point yesterday. It is still such a waste, 30, never married, no kids and her whole life in front of her. But I always believe there is a reason for everything that happens in life, so I am waiting to see what this tragic event is leading.

Me, I'm doing pretty good, the plans are in place for a lot of things going on in my life, I might have found a car, the trip to TX is still on just pushed back a few weeks :(, and my drinking, has ceased and deceased for a few days now. I had no immediate need to want to go out with the girls from work either yesterday, so I look at that as progress!! yeah me

Eating has been ok, not the best as I think the stress is causing me to not want to eat, or if I do as soon as I start I can't continue. I'm sure as things in my life level out so will this. Also, exercise is back on track. Got a 3+ mile walk in last night too, so I've been feeling stronger in that area of my life. Overall I give myself a thumbs up as work is in progress once again :)

Happy St Patty's day to all

I am spending it hoping that I will have a car by the weekend. I am feeling yuck still, ears are clogged and eyes are starting to feel heavy also :( I don't want to be sick at all!

My gf is maintaining on her own and well I'm feeling like blah.

I'm doing good with things, got to bed early but probably because I felt so sick.

I just don't have alot to say this morning but sure I will later tonight!

A couple of things that get me through some days...

I love to have quotes around, in fact I journal almost everyday offline as well as online...good god I have too much time on my hands. Well I was reading a journal from last year, I have some poems I have written in there (from some dark days) as well as uplifting things that I like to read and make me smile. I want to share a few of these, actually I just want to put them out there for me:

"The question is not whether you love someone enough to die for them, the real question is do you love them enough to truly live."

"Dancing is a perpendicular expression of a horizontal desire."

and one of my favorites I read each morning:

"Life is too short to wake up ith regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."

Enjoy, I just did...

I have given this alot of thought.....

and I am taking control of my life back. I have had it with the sleepless nights, lack of exercise and just plain old blaise way I have been feeling lately. I missed 6 phones calls and two text messages last night, why because I was so stressed and overstrung by the day, that I crashed hard and slept right through them. I would have liked to talk to at least two of the callers and I would have responded to the texts, but no I was out like a zombie.

Stability - the word for today on my gf's front....I hate it, I wish improvement were the word they spoke!

I have finished cleaning. I have cooked a healthy late lunch/early dinner. I have done my yoga. The weather sucks so I did not (or at least not yet) get in a walk, I actually wanted to take a nice walk to the Dollar Store, but I guess that will wait for another day.

I hate having no car, I hate having to wait on other's to help me out at their convenience. It's like being locked in a prison, oh and I find out today, no bus service on Sunday's. I know they need a day off, but I was going to venture to the mall...boo :(

So here I am, fighting off a nap because if I nap, I will be up all night. Tomorrow is a new day, and I will get up and exercise and not hit my alarm like 10 times and I will take charge of me and my life an get it back in order!

Sunday and grey again.....

No news yet from the hospital so for right now I am going on everything is well, I will be calling out there soon to see if I can at least chat for 5 min with her and make sure everything is ok. I hate not having wheels right now to go see her...it stinks. I am in the process of selling my tires on my truck (since there are new) and then getting the junkyard to pickup the truck and get it out of here. I refuse to put anymore money into it and it still not running. Anyhow, I want to say hi and thanks for my newfound blogmate, who happens to live right down the road from me. You have a great blog and I need to put some of that great positive affirmation back into my life. I had a great morning browsing through your blog!!! So go visit her.....http://ablogintherough.blogspot.com/ and enjoy...she is a great blogger!

Anyhow, it's Sunday, gray and chilly. I am freezing again today. It's almost 11am and I am dragging get my butt in gear. I have a few more loads of wash, the boy wants to watch a movie and I MUST clean the bathroom, it's ewie!!!

I am leaving the drama of this weekend behind me. I will be calling the lawyer first thing tomorrow morning and see if there is some way we can put and end to this once and for all...I mean c'mon folks, it has been forever and I need some relief!

I am going to try and venture out today for a bit...we'll see how far I can get but I need to start walking, grey weather and all!

I am back from the visit

and now I going to bed. I'm drained, she is definitely not well and all is not good :(

Saturday afternoon is meant to be peaceful.....

until you get the call that one of your good friends, who happens to be stricken with cancer, is dying. Yes, that is the call I got today, so I promptly got myself on a bus to her....good lord, she is a young one, 30.....I hate to see it..I'm devastated to be honest...but it is her reality, everything seems to be failing, all the treatments gone for nought....I'm so sad.....so I leave with you with my tears for my friend and to always remember that no matter how bad it is right now.....you are not dealing with that....

Early in the morning..............

because I can't sleep so I will blog. I am still a bit angry about the subpeona, I was planning my own trip down to TX to see my friend, of course the stupid lawyer fees will dash that unless I can figure out another way to gather the needed money. I'm sure the whole issue of his right now will be thrown out of court, like all previous ones because all he keeps trying to do is suck money out of me (since he still doesn't work as I gather).

So here I am, early on a cold, gray and going to be rainy Saturday morning. I want to work on the boy's room today, it will require a ton of cleaning out. I hope it will keep me occupied. I haven't had a drink either in a few nights, although after the whole thing yesterday it was very tempting!

I am ready for spring, warmer weather, and sunshine. I think the sunshine would be the thing that would really make me the happiest right now. Thank goodness spring is right around the corner for us.

Time for another cup of coffee, I will get my yoga done today and then start on the cleaning. I would love to watch a movie too, hopefully I won't get too sleepy and fall asleep during it...lol