My cruise

is 22 days away, I'm so excited it's not even funny. As I sit here freezing my ass off in this weather that has been in the teens for days I don't know if I won't be frozen by the time I leave for the airport in February. I have a brand new adventure before me with this trip.....I have been alone now for a short while, I am coming to terms with the life that I am leading now and it's really good, I like it actually. I have spent alot of time with my friends, some whom I haven't seen in quite a while because of the distance and the circumstances that have surrounded the whole disassociation, but I am grateful for the chance to rekindle these relationships.

I have been feeling very satisfied like I said in this time and place in my life, I like it here where I live, my kids are very settled here with their schools and friends, but I feel like there is a small piece of me that is wanting more out of life, to experience new things and try out new things or places, I'm not quite sure what it is or what I am searching for right now, but I will continue to look. I think this trip is coming at a perfect time and well that being said the company on the trip is going to be just what I need to break out of my mold so to speak. I am going with an old, dear friend. I know it is going to be a much needed break from my reality here and something that is sorely needed in my life right about now. I am just grateful I will be able to thaw out a little from this cold, cold winter we are having this year!

On another note, the world stopped for a moment this a.m. and sworn in a new president, a chance at a new beginning (hopefully) because the way this nation is now, well I'm not totally happy. Of course nothing will happen overnight but it will happen it has to, I have faith and hope for all of us.

Just another quick note, I've been the horrible carb monster, its the darn cold weather, just makes me want comfort food, I need to stop and stop right now or I will be a beached whale on my trip, in my swimsuit....which cannot happen!! I am writing this to help me stop, gain control of myself again, I realized this today when for the second night after making dinner I was not hungry because my dumbass ate too much crap today! all day long!! enough.....the weight hasn't fluctuated but the pants are a bit snug...ugh