Thursday, September 13, 2007

It's not easy

Last night was a struggle to find things to occupy myself instead of grazing. It's hard some days and some not. I'm not sure if it was the fact that I was baking a birthday cake and was dying to dip my fingers in the batter or the icing, but I did also bake a low sugar apple crisp for myself to satisfy that sweet tooth I was having. I'm not sure if it is the changing of the seasons, where is was crisp and cool out last night and your natural instincts are to bulk up on carbs for the long winter....I'm not sure if it was just me being an idiot and thinking in my head that I can eat whatever I wanted. Well the good news is, my mind did not win, I did not graze nor did I dip fingers in batter or icing. The cake is done, iced and waiting for the party tonight. The apple crisp was baked, I had one small serving and was satisfied. But the hours of doing things and being in the kitchen was leading me down a path I do not want to go back to. I love to cook, bake whatever. I find it very soothing to me on the long winter's day when there is not alot else to do, but if this is how it will be I will not be doing alot of anything in the kitchen. I do know that up until last month I let my dh handle alot of the cooking and steered clear of the kitchen for the most part, only to pickup dinner plates and deliver to dining room, or clean up....I have alot of work to do on this one, and I want to win this battle!

On a good front, I got tons of exercise in yesterday and logged an alltime low of 151.4 on the scale, last night, fully dressed! I put on a small size shirt and size 8 slacks today!! WAHOO another victory for me. I seemed to have broken another stall and it feels good, but this one was about 2 months long...WOW Tomorrow is our visit to the Y and I'm excited. On another note, I was told by my NUT that if you want to join a gym, club or exercise class, there is a 10 minute rule, if it takes you more than 10 minutes to get there the likelihood of staying is less than if you can find one closer to home! Just a little food for thought.


Melanie said...

I'm proud of you for being able to resist the temptation. That's the hardest part for me. I'm sure there are plenty low calorie things you can bake this winter to appease your sweet tooth.

Incredible Me said...

AAAAAaaaaa this grazing/head hunger thing is soooo hard.

Oh my gosh 151.4 is such a wonderful number. A size 8. You must be over the moon delighted!