Tuesday, July 03, 2007

When is enough?

Enough food, enough praise and enough criticism. I seem to be falling under each of these now, some more than others. I eat till I'm full, one day that may be more food than the other. I take in everyone's praise and for the most part am thankful I'm alive to enjoy it, but on the other hand I have my share of criticism lately. You are too thin, you don't eat enough, you should stop losing, you will fall away to nothing. OK for the record right now I weigh 165, I'm 5'5 and I'm not where "medical science" believes is a good weight, if I were there I would weigh more like 140ish give or take a few lbs. So believe me when I say I'm not thin, but I am drastically thinner than the former self pre-surgery. I have lost 81.5 lb which is a small child, but the point being I'm healthier and I've accepted that if I don't reach that goal of 140 it's ok because I'm ok. I'm almost off all my meds (currently weaning off the last bp pill) and I can walk, exercise (with a vengence) and do things I haven't been able to do in years. All I ever wanted to be was healthy, and be there for my boys when they get older and hopefully marry and bring me grandchildren. I want to be there for my dh and enjoy our lives as we grow older and do things that I wouldn't have dreamed of in my former state of being. So for all of those out there who like to critize me, enough is what I've had when I deem that is necessary. I don't need anyone to tell me what to do or how to live my life. I am enjoying myself and you should be enjoying your life and not worrying so much about mine!


Amber said...

Why can't people just zip it?!? I already have people telling me "don't get too thin.. you'll look weird"... etc. I haven't figured out why people do this or make these (underhanded?) comments. I just wanted to comment and post that I kwym and if you figure out how to deal with it, let me know! ;)
The bottom line is it's our bodies, our business and ultimately, we are the ones who get to decide when enough is enough!
Take care!

Michelle said...

I agree wholeheartedly. I'm starting to think that people are so used to the old me, that they just can't get a grip on the new me!