Tuesday, July 03, 2007
When is enough?
Enough food, enough praise and enough criticism. I seem to be falling under each of these now, some more than others. I eat till I'm full, one day that may be more food than the other. I take in everyone's praise and for the most part am thankful I'm alive to enjoy it, but on the other hand I have my share of criticism lately. You are too thin, you don't eat enough, you should stop losing, you will fall away to nothing. OK for the record right now I weigh 165, I'm 5'5 and I'm not where "medical science" believes is a good weight, if I were there I would weigh more like 140ish give or take a few lbs. So believe me when I say I'm not thin, but I am drastically thinner than the former self pre-surgery. I have lost 81.5 lb which is a small child, but the point being I'm healthier and I've accepted that if I don't reach that goal of 140 it's ok because I'm ok. I'm almost off all my meds (currently weaning off the last bp pill) and I can walk, exercise (with a vengence) and do things I haven't been able to do in years. All I ever wanted to be was healthy, and be there for my boys when they get older and hopefully marry and bring me grandchildren. I want to be there for my dh and enjoy our lives as we grow older and do things that I wouldn't have dreamed of in my former state of being. So for all of those out there who like to critize me, enough is what I've had when I deem that is necessary. I don't need anyone to tell me what to do or how to live my life. I am enjoying myself and you should be enjoying your life and not worrying so much about mine!