Tuesday, May 22, 2007


Is my first night of therapy again, I am going solo. It's a scary time as it reminds me that things are changing in my less than normal ho hum life. I wanted dh to join me but it's not right for him. Will it ever be? Who knows, by then will I have moved forward and maybe onward in my journey and left him 50miles behind, who knows. What I do know is it is a challenge and a privledge to be married. It's not all roses and fun, that's for sure.

On a lighter note, I've decided to take a 1/2 day of vacation on Friday and treat the boys (and dh if he wants to go) to the beach for the weekend. The weather should be perfect and gives me the best excuse to buy a bathing suit!! OH MY!! I feel like a child at christmas with the prospect of trying on a suit and hopefully liking what I see, it's my first suit in at least a dozen years, maybe more?? I can't believe I actually don't mind going out in public with my ultra white skin and a piece of clothing that leaves little to be desired. Of course anyone post WLS, pre-plastics knows what I mean. I have the swaying bat wings, the skin on the thighs that reminds me of jello jigglers, but to put on the suit and not have just fat hanging everywhere is a godsend to someone like me. Of course now that I've written all of this the whole process of buying the suit could be treasure hunt of grand proportions.

So wish me luck with purchase and course I'm looking forward to seeing the shrink.


Leah said...

Best of luck to you! I've been in therapy for 5 years (been married 14) and it has actually really helped my marriage (and no, my husband doesn't go).
I know the stats for relationships post-WLS are not great, but you are making a big step in seeking out therapy.
Who knows where this all will take you? Hopefully there will be joy in the journey.

Danyele said...

Wishing you all the best sweetie.

Oh - and about the swimsuit.. there are some really cute suits over at Old Navy. I have my eye on a gold-bronze onepiece with a halter neck.. gooooorgeous!