Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Ok the grim reality of me for the last six months

and no it's not pretty, and it's not smart and it's not a WLS person's way of life, but it has been my reality and I'm ready (finally) to share....



Ok, for those who watch Oprah or whatever talk show gives the vice for WLS that has been me, I have succumbed to this bizzare reality and no I was in total denial doing so....here is my bad story.....



I have thought about this alot, during the last few months...ok it's been like 5...I work in an industry that is prone to drinking.....for those of you who don't know, drink is reality available...it's really bad.. anyhow. I have gotten in the rut of drinking things (concotions) I should not.....so the long story short yes I have replaced the eating addiction a new addiction to drinking. It started out as a harmless drink now and again, then it escalated into a few times a week, then the stress built and I noticed I would have at least 2 drinks per night, then a few more and so the rollercoaster ride began. Once I realized how much I was drinking on a daily basis I totally stepped back, it wasn't pretty, it was good and it's over (hopefully) for good. I do now and again indulge in one drink, and one is the limit. It's not everyday, it's not more than once a week and I make sure I think before I put that addiction into my mouth. So yes, I too have traded one addiction for another, now to be more conscious about everything, liquid or solid that goes into my body. It's a hard road and gives me a new respect for why it happens, not that I am condoning it, because I am certainly not, but it has been my reality.

3 comments:

She's A Rebel, She's A Saint said...

Me too. And it's so hard to admit that it's a bad thing, when it feels so good. I was practically a tee-totaller before WLS. Only drank once or twice a year, and then only a couple of beers. Now I'm drinking wine daily. I woke up at 4AM this morning and laid in bed thinking about the amount of calories I'm drinking every day. And the fact that my weight loss stopped when I started drinking and that I'm now struggling not to GAIN. It's not food. It's the wine. I have to stop.

Thank you for saying it outloud Michelle. I feel like you were meant to say this to help me.

Susy said...

It sure is easy to go from one addictive thing to another. Even before surgery I knew I had a addictive personality. Michelle I too have already made myself not drink for 15 plus days. I found I was thinking about it like I used to with food. Just make the stress go away. Proud of you for seeing what you needed to see and not pushing it aside. This is about our health! :) Thanks for sharing and your not alone.

Through Thick and Thin said...

I wonder how common this is and how many people don't talk about it. This post really hits home. Thank you.