yeah, the final plans are in the works. I was able to talk with her mom, dad and brother all at some point yesterday. It is still such a waste, 30, never married, no kids and her whole life in front of her. But I always believe there is a reason for everything that happens in life, so I am waiting to see what this tragic event is leading.
Me, I'm doing pretty good, the plans are in place for a lot of things going on in my life, I might have found a car, the trip to TX is still on just pushed back a few weeks :(, and my drinking, has ceased and deceased for a few days now. I had no immediate need to want to go out with the girls from work either yesterday, so I look at that as progress!! yeah me
Eating has been ok, not the best as I think the stress is causing me to not want to eat, or if I do as soon as I start I can't continue. I'm sure as things in my life level out so will this. Also, exercise is back on track. Got a 3+ mile walk in last night too, so I've been feeling stronger in that area of my life. Overall I give myself a thumbs up as work is in progress once again :)
Showing posts with label addictions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label addictions. Show all posts
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Ok the grim reality of me for the last six months
and no it's not pretty, and it's not smart and it's not a WLS person's way of life, but it has been my reality and I'm ready (finally) to share....
Ok, for those who watch Oprah or whatever talk show gives the vice for WLS that has been me, I have succumbed to this bizzare reality and no I was in total denial doing so....here is my bad story.....
I have thought about this alot, during the last few months...ok it's been like 5...I work in an industry that is prone to drinking.....for those of you who don't know, drink is reality available...it's really bad.. anyhow. I have gotten in the rut of drinking things (concotions) I should not.....so the long story short yes I have replaced the eating addiction a new addiction to drinking. It started out as a harmless drink now and again, then it escalated into a few times a week, then the stress built and I noticed I would have at least 2 drinks per night, then a few more and so the rollercoaster ride began. Once I realized how much I was drinking on a daily basis I totally stepped back, it wasn't pretty, it was good and it's over (hopefully) for good. I do now and again indulge in one drink, and one is the limit. It's not everyday, it's not more than once a week and I make sure I think before I put that addiction into my mouth. So yes, I too have traded one addiction for another, now to be more conscious about everything, liquid or solid that goes into my body. It's a hard road and gives me a new respect for why it happens, not that I am condoning it, because I am certainly not, but it has been my reality.
Ok, for those who watch Oprah or whatever talk show gives the vice for WLS that has been me, I have succumbed to this bizzare reality and no I was in total denial doing so....here is my bad story.....
I have thought about this alot, during the last few months...ok it's been like 5...I work in an industry that is prone to drinking.....for those of you who don't know, drink is reality available...it's really bad.. anyhow. I have gotten in the rut of drinking things (concotions) I should not.....so the long story short yes I have replaced the eating addiction a new addiction to drinking. It started out as a harmless drink now and again, then it escalated into a few times a week, then the stress built and I noticed I would have at least 2 drinks per night, then a few more and so the rollercoaster ride began. Once I realized how much I was drinking on a daily basis I totally stepped back, it wasn't pretty, it was good and it's over (hopefully) for good. I do now and again indulge in one drink, and one is the limit. It's not everyday, it's not more than once a week and I make sure I think before I put that addiction into my mouth. So yes, I too have traded one addiction for another, now to be more conscious about everything, liquid or solid that goes into my body. It's a hard road and gives me a new respect for why it happens, not that I am condoning it, because I am certainly not, but it has been my reality.
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